Hi, I am back again. I don't know how emotional I will get when the time goes by. Will time really heal all? In my opinion, if there is a cut, the scar will always be there. If anyone tell you that, I forget about my previous love or something, that is BULL SHIT!! Understanding of true love will say this, "I have regret on not treating you well, hope you will live better." NEVER SAY THIS, "give me time to prove myself wrong, I will try you better the next time, please wait for me."
Haiz!!! How long? How long? How long will I stay this way. Nearly 4years, say good bye mean good bye. Miserable life. Nah, I won't end my life. That's so stupid!!!
Life is like a puzzle. Everything you did is a piece of puzzle. I hope I am the piece that complete her puzzle.
Quoted by: Zinc Ong
Life is like rowing a boat. Sometime you have to row forward, sometime you have to row backwards. In the end, you will still move forward.
Quoted by Peter Teo
Hope my life will be better soon. Not going to think of getting a partner now. Going to concerntrate on my dream goals. Once I succeed, I will prove the obstacle discision wrong but still really hope to get back to her. I actually plan to propose in another 2 to 3 years time. Haiz, forget it.
Monday, February 14, 2011
The start of all memories
Hi, I know it been awhile since I blog. To me, telling my things on the blog is to show off. Today will be the day i show my love story to whom who read this. This may be a new beginning or end of everything in my life.
The date started on 23rd November 2004 and ended on 8th January 2011. This is the first time I see her. The day of the brand new beginning for me. She look weird then, cute and adorable but with some unwanted acne on the face. It's her period of growing. We started with a "Hi" and back to go to work. I can still remember that I purposely stay until that late for her to come to work. Why do i stay? Because, the aunties and uncles told me there's a pretty lady working at night. So with the heart of curiosity, I stay after work to see her.
From then on, I started working night. Not because I fall in love with her, just think that I can make a new friend. The second time we met, was when she was asking me to bring the trolley back from the carpark. I finish the assignment and start talking to her. Asking her particular and some personal matter. I got this habit of asking personal matter to whoever I want to make friend with. To me, knowing the background of that person, is a better ways to counter their feelings and mind.
When times goes by, we exchange phone numbers and start chatting in the night. Understanding each other and getting to know each other better. Sooner or later, I asked her to be my god-sister. I have always wanted to have a younger sister. That's why I go away to ask people to be my god-sister who I can talk comfortly.
She actually fell in love with someone else when I start having feeling for her. It's a heartaching matter as I also helpped the guy in getting her heart. They are together not long after that. It's a short relationship. I am happy and sad and jealous. During the time they are together, I force myself to get distracted by trying to date someone else. She helped me too. In the end, mine doesn't not work well.
When they broke up, her god-brother and me comfort her for awhile. She cried everyday, my heart tearing with her too. After a few months, I told her the guarentee that I can give her. The laughter I can provide. She rejected me for the first time. The reason is, she still haven't get over the previous relationship.
The happiest day happened on 3rd March 2007. Start of the new relationship and all the memories I had with her. Going out together, first movie, first restaurant entered, first hand holding, first hug, first gift, first kiss, first anniversary and first teardrop from her. I don't have the movie ticket of our first date, don't have the first dinning receipt, dun have the first gift receipt but I got the tissue of her first teardrop with me. The rest of the item, I made them into a book and give it to her. The objective is to tell her I care and I will remember the time I spend with her. Others said that is a book of receipt, telling her how much I had spent on her but she felt happy on receiving the book which delighted me. Since then, I got all the confidence that everyone is complainning about.
Things goes as what I plan for her and me until the day, she told her family of my existence. The family haven't really give me any impact but I know, she is suffering from invisible force. I tried to change myself to a better person for the family to see but it's fail. Attitude starts coming out and all my bad habit showing out to her. I am really really grateful to her for tolerating my anger and giving in to me all the time.
I get distracted easily when she called. I get frustrated when she tried to talk things out to me. I get angry when she tried to control me. This is a form of love and yet I neglected it. Two years in army, people around me telling that girlfriend will leave as we can't spend much time on them. BUT she stood still and waited for me. I promise her that I will give her a call whenever there is time. I called her every night. Even though the call is short, I still get to talk to her.
Started smoking due to peer pressure. She bought chewing gums for smoker for me. Trying to stop me from smoking. I feel happy but at the same time, got angry of her for buying things for me. I couldn't express myself for appreciation.
Every time when she buy things for me, i scold her. I hate myself for scolding her. I told her not to buy things for me as I will scold her. She refuse to take my advice and continue to buy things for me. I really like the things she give me, I really love them. Just trying to show off my 'don't care side'.
Sometime she complain to me for not wearing our ring. The reason I told her is I don't like to wear accessories. The actual facts is army don't allow accessories. The ring had never leave my side unless I go bathing even now.
She likes to sing and take photo. I cannot sing in front of the mic. I do accompany her to go sing sometime. Most of the time I don't go, because I don't want to waste money. I don't like to take picture because I don't like myself in the photo. She secretly take my photo and show it to me. SWEET!!
When she going to start school, I afraid that she will met other guys there. She give me the word that she won't leave me. When I going to start school, she scare that I will fall in love with someone else. I told her I will get someone better to replace her. I love to see her get jealous over me. So I make her jealous all the time. Telling her the things that she don't want to hear but the hurtful words is not what I meant.
I got my own way of doing things. I don't like to share my problem. She will complain and ask me to tell her. In the end she will get scolding. I don't like to hear things that I don't like and I know is the fact. I can't face it without her.
Things get complicated when her tolerance reaches the maximum. Things couldn't work well since then. At that time, I started to plan on our future. Wedding, savings anything that will involve the two of us. The day strike me. I never expect this will happen to me.
"Never give others surprise as you will always get surprise by the person you are going to give surprise". I told her this long ago and I getting the words back to me. That day, I got a meeting and I went to buy a movie ticket. The meet up is to apologise to her on the argument we had earlier on. I end my meeting early, so i went to her house to give her surprise. The surprise really surprise her. She never expect me for giving her surprise and she intend to break up. Her plan was to breakup with me after the date. I enter the house noticing nothing wrong till I sat in front of her laptop. I find it weird that she didn't sit next to me. I go to her bed to lie down and she sat in front of her laptop. I am sure something is wrong, so i started conversation with her on her laptop. I told her I will download something for her. She say ok and went back to her bed with a book. I notice she was just flipping the page and I went to her. Stopping her from leaving my sight. She start tearing and tell me why. I insist of not breaking but I fail. Leaving her house with sadness after 2 hours. She sms me with "this will be the last time, dear good bye." I know this is bad but i replied "what so good about bye? bye!"
The mother came into the picture after the breakup. Let's not talk about her mother. We actually patch after 2 days. I know she is confuse. she is confuse of being between her mother and me. I told her to find out what she want, she say she choose me. 3 days after we patch, the mother meet me and told us to get our separate ways. The day we breakup, officially 8th January 2011. It's a peaceful breakup.
Things change much since then, I told her a lot of hurtful words but I don't meant what I say. 12th February 2011, I thought that I get over her already, I thought i can survive seeing her. I didn't expect that the first sight of her, bleed my heart. I actually plan not to go for the run at Safari Zoo, I just wanted to see how she is doing, how she is feeling. So i attend the run. Really didn't exect myself being so weak with my emotion. Feeling jealous of seeing her talking to other guys happily, closing up myself from her and other group of her friend. Cabbing home, I purposely wanted to be the last to alight, to see if we can talk, I couldn't start a conversation. Teardrop in the cab home. Cried under my void deck. Called my good friend to comfort me. Didn't expect she is doing better than i expected. Felt so jealous about everything.
Sms her to take care and all. Crying while doing that. She called the next day, we talk for awhile, asking her if there a chance for us to patch. She replied "I don't think so. No matter what, my mother is still there. So the problem will be there too". From that onwards, I decided to make myself disappear in front of her. Getting missing for awhile to heal. It will not be easy.
Told my mother she is not going to attend my sister wedding due to her exam. Telling my mother not to contact her for any of our event. She ask me why and why we broke up. Tears is at the edge of rolling. I haven't told her everything, my tear start rolling and i walk to the toilet to cry while bathing.
Felt so jealous, I really afraid to receive news saying that she have a new boyfriend. I thought of sending whatever she give me, back to her. Everything!!! Photo, shirt, letter, everything!! I know is childish but I think this is the best way for me.
The date started on 23rd November 2004 and ended on 8th January 2011. This is the first time I see her. The day of the brand new beginning for me. She look weird then, cute and adorable but with some unwanted acne on the face. It's her period of growing. We started with a "Hi" and back to go to work. I can still remember that I purposely stay until that late for her to come to work. Why do i stay? Because, the aunties and uncles told me there's a pretty lady working at night. So with the heart of curiosity, I stay after work to see her.
From then on, I started working night. Not because I fall in love with her, just think that I can make a new friend. The second time we met, was when she was asking me to bring the trolley back from the carpark. I finish the assignment and start talking to her. Asking her particular and some personal matter. I got this habit of asking personal matter to whoever I want to make friend with. To me, knowing the background of that person, is a better ways to counter their feelings and mind.
When times goes by, we exchange phone numbers and start chatting in the night. Understanding each other and getting to know each other better. Sooner or later, I asked her to be my god-sister. I have always wanted to have a younger sister. That's why I go away to ask people to be my god-sister who I can talk comfortly.
She actually fell in love with someone else when I start having feeling for her. It's a heartaching matter as I also helpped the guy in getting her heart. They are together not long after that. It's a short relationship. I am happy and sad and jealous. During the time they are together, I force myself to get distracted by trying to date someone else. She helped me too. In the end, mine doesn't not work well.
When they broke up, her god-brother and me comfort her for awhile. She cried everyday, my heart tearing with her too. After a few months, I told her the guarentee that I can give her. The laughter I can provide. She rejected me for the first time. The reason is, she still haven't get over the previous relationship.
The happiest day happened on 3rd March 2007. Start of the new relationship and all the memories I had with her. Going out together, first movie, first restaurant entered, first hand holding, first hug, first gift, first kiss, first anniversary and first teardrop from her. I don't have the movie ticket of our first date, don't have the first dinning receipt, dun have the first gift receipt but I got the tissue of her first teardrop with me. The rest of the item, I made them into a book and give it to her. The objective is to tell her I care and I will remember the time I spend with her. Others said that is a book of receipt, telling her how much I had spent on her but she felt happy on receiving the book which delighted me. Since then, I got all the confidence that everyone is complainning about.
Things goes as what I plan for her and me until the day, she told her family of my existence. The family haven't really give me any impact but I know, she is suffering from invisible force. I tried to change myself to a better person for the family to see but it's fail. Attitude starts coming out and all my bad habit showing out to her. I am really really grateful to her for tolerating my anger and giving in to me all the time.
I get distracted easily when she called. I get frustrated when she tried to talk things out to me. I get angry when she tried to control me. This is a form of love and yet I neglected it. Two years in army, people around me telling that girlfriend will leave as we can't spend much time on them. BUT she stood still and waited for me. I promise her that I will give her a call whenever there is time. I called her every night. Even though the call is short, I still get to talk to her.
Started smoking due to peer pressure. She bought chewing gums for smoker for me. Trying to stop me from smoking. I feel happy but at the same time, got angry of her for buying things for me. I couldn't express myself for appreciation.
Every time when she buy things for me, i scold her. I hate myself for scolding her. I told her not to buy things for me as I will scold her. She refuse to take my advice and continue to buy things for me. I really like the things she give me, I really love them. Just trying to show off my 'don't care side'.
Sometime she complain to me for not wearing our ring. The reason I told her is I don't like to wear accessories. The actual facts is army don't allow accessories. The ring had never leave my side unless I go bathing even now.
She likes to sing and take photo. I cannot sing in front of the mic. I do accompany her to go sing sometime. Most of the time I don't go, because I don't want to waste money. I don't like to take picture because I don't like myself in the photo. She secretly take my photo and show it to me. SWEET!!
When she going to start school, I afraid that she will met other guys there. She give me the word that she won't leave me. When I going to start school, she scare that I will fall in love with someone else. I told her I will get someone better to replace her. I love to see her get jealous over me. So I make her jealous all the time. Telling her the things that she don't want to hear but the hurtful words is not what I meant.
I got my own way of doing things. I don't like to share my problem. She will complain and ask me to tell her. In the end she will get scolding. I don't like to hear things that I don't like and I know is the fact. I can't face it without her.
Things get complicated when her tolerance reaches the maximum. Things couldn't work well since then. At that time, I started to plan on our future. Wedding, savings anything that will involve the two of us. The day strike me. I never expect this will happen to me.
"Never give others surprise as you will always get surprise by the person you are going to give surprise". I told her this long ago and I getting the words back to me. That day, I got a meeting and I went to buy a movie ticket. The meet up is to apologise to her on the argument we had earlier on. I end my meeting early, so i went to her house to give her surprise. The surprise really surprise her. She never expect me for giving her surprise and she intend to break up. Her plan was to breakup with me after the date. I enter the house noticing nothing wrong till I sat in front of her laptop. I find it weird that she didn't sit next to me. I go to her bed to lie down and she sat in front of her laptop. I am sure something is wrong, so i started conversation with her on her laptop. I told her I will download something for her. She say ok and went back to her bed with a book. I notice she was just flipping the page and I went to her. Stopping her from leaving my sight. She start tearing and tell me why. I insist of not breaking but I fail. Leaving her house with sadness after 2 hours. She sms me with "this will be the last time, dear good bye." I know this is bad but i replied "what so good about bye? bye!"
The mother came into the picture after the breakup. Let's not talk about her mother. We actually patch after 2 days. I know she is confuse. she is confuse of being between her mother and me. I told her to find out what she want, she say she choose me. 3 days after we patch, the mother meet me and told us to get our separate ways. The day we breakup, officially 8th January 2011. It's a peaceful breakup.
Things change much since then, I told her a lot of hurtful words but I don't meant what I say. 12th February 2011, I thought that I get over her already, I thought i can survive seeing her. I didn't expect that the first sight of her, bleed my heart. I actually plan not to go for the run at Safari Zoo, I just wanted to see how she is doing, how she is feeling. So i attend the run. Really didn't exect myself being so weak with my emotion. Feeling jealous of seeing her talking to other guys happily, closing up myself from her and other group of her friend. Cabbing home, I purposely wanted to be the last to alight, to see if we can talk, I couldn't start a conversation. Teardrop in the cab home. Cried under my void deck. Called my good friend to comfort me. Didn't expect she is doing better than i expected. Felt so jealous about everything.
Sms her to take care and all. Crying while doing that. She called the next day, we talk for awhile, asking her if there a chance for us to patch. She replied "I don't think so. No matter what, my mother is still there. So the problem will be there too". From that onwards, I decided to make myself disappear in front of her. Getting missing for awhile to heal. It will not be easy.
Told my mother she is not going to attend my sister wedding due to her exam. Telling my mother not to contact her for any of our event. She ask me why and why we broke up. Tears is at the edge of rolling. I haven't told her everything, my tear start rolling and i walk to the toilet to cry while bathing.
Felt so jealous, I really afraid to receive news saying that she have a new boyfriend. I thought of sending whatever she give me, back to her. Everything!!! Photo, shirt, letter, everything!! I know is childish but I think this is the best way for me.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
hello!! haiz! i finally can relax. been having some slpless days. yesterday was my school CCN day. i forgot abt the full name of the event but is some carnival. its to help the ppl in need, earn some cash for them.
everything started 2 week ago when we decided to make cookies in "M" hse. after all the discussion, sat is the first day we went "M" hse to start the first batch of cookies making after we got some order and money from our customer.
alot of thing have to be done b4 go start the baking. first is buy all the things we need. like the ingredient, entertainment and food(that's for me). the ingredient is flour, butter, caster sugar, choco chip and eggs.
i not going into the making of the dough la, is abit too wu liao. after making the dough, we make the first batch of big cookies for the order. i make the icing for the writing of wording for the big cookies. everyone in the group tot i veri good in making cookies cos i work in famous amos but i m not. i not superman. i can onli trail and error to make them happy. haha. sat we do some of the cookies and wasted lot of time due to the waiting of cookies baking. as we got onli 1 oven. aft that day, some of us decided not to go home and went study together. there "B" and "P". we send "P" home while "B" drive "P" home wif me along. "P" take 10 min to take a bath and take all the book we need. after that, "B" send me home to bath and pick my things up. soon after, we reach "B" hse. he went to bath while we wait in the living room. that time was abt 1230 in the morning. no one was tire at that time. when "B" is out, tot that we leaving, he took out some food in the kitchen where "B" mother cook for him as dinner."B" took the food to the living room where we was sitting then he sit near us and start eating.
aft "B" dinner, we went off to.........coffee shop for supper. haha aft supper, really went to study. for abt 2 and a half hrs. aft that we went prawning!!!! haha. for abt 1hrs plus. go back "B" hse to collect some item and the back to "M" hse. (i skip some part of the story. i getting tire of typing).
went we reach "M" hse, everone start to get tire. "C" was no where to be found. he been called back to camp for moblisation which we dunno until that evening. so we start off wif out him. do and do and do, ppl start to fall aslp. left wif "M" and me doing the cookies. that day was "M" birthday too. so during the nitez, we celebrated "M" birthday wif her parent. aft that we went off. i also went home to slp.
monday, we delivery the cookies to sch and send out all the order for that day. aft that day, i got even more order. comment was the cookies is nice, the cookies is beautiful. so we make other arrangement to to bake the cookies. this time was in "C" hse. due to some unforeseen circumstances, we took awhile to start making cookies. i was working when thing happened. i didn ask much. when i reach there, thing get rolling already. so i join in and continue the cookies in the making. everyone have e math quiz in the morning but i dun as i exempted.we went to sch. i didn wan to take the quiz but since i in sch, just muz as well take the test. it cause no harm to me.
aft sch, we all went home. too slpy. fall aslp when i didn notice. when i woke up, i realise some homework need to be submited on fri. i start my work when i woke up from my nap. is abt 7plus. of cos i took my dinner. when i finish, the time is 4am. i quickly rush to my bed and slp. "P" was working in the homework too. we helped each other though the net.
since the first lesson is math, i skip that hrs and went sch b4 the next class start. feeling so tire, actually skip some of the lecture on that day. aft school when to make cookies again. make them till morning again. go sch, there, the event reach the climate. sold out all the cookies of my group hard work. veri well done. got some profit. now still need me to finish counting the expenses. i haven start the counting. i m too tire till i actually late for work today. nvm, at least now i m here typing haha.
everything started 2 week ago when we decided to make cookies in "M" hse. after all the discussion, sat is the first day we went "M" hse to start the first batch of cookies making after we got some order and money from our customer.
alot of thing have to be done b4 go start the baking. first is buy all the things we need. like the ingredient, entertainment and food(that's for me). the ingredient is flour, butter, caster sugar, choco chip and eggs.
i not going into the making of the dough la, is abit too wu liao. after making the dough, we make the first batch of big cookies for the order. i make the icing for the writing of wording for the big cookies. everyone in the group tot i veri good in making cookies cos i work in famous amos but i m not. i not superman. i can onli trail and error to make them happy. haha. sat we do some of the cookies and wasted lot of time due to the waiting of cookies baking. as we got onli 1 oven. aft that day, some of us decided not to go home and went study together. there "B" and "P". we send "P" home while "B" drive "P" home wif me along. "P" take 10 min to take a bath and take all the book we need. after that, "B" send me home to bath and pick my things up. soon after, we reach "B" hse. he went to bath while we wait in the living room. that time was abt 1230 in the morning. no one was tire at that time. when "B" is out, tot that we leaving, he took out some food in the kitchen where "B" mother cook for him as dinner."B" took the food to the living room where we was sitting then he sit near us and start eating.
aft "B" dinner, we went off to.........coffee shop for supper. haha aft supper, really went to study. for abt 2 and a half hrs. aft that we went prawning!!!! haha. for abt 1hrs plus. go back "B" hse to collect some item and the back to "M" hse. (i skip some part of the story. i getting tire of typing).
went we reach "M" hse, everone start to get tire. "C" was no where to be found. he been called back to camp for moblisation which we dunno until that evening. so we start off wif out him. do and do and do, ppl start to fall aslp. left wif "M" and me doing the cookies. that day was "M" birthday too. so during the nitez, we celebrated "M" birthday wif her parent. aft that we went off. i also went home to slp.
monday, we delivery the cookies to sch and send out all the order for that day. aft that day, i got even more order. comment was the cookies is nice, the cookies is beautiful. so we make other arrangement to to bake the cookies. this time was in "C" hse. due to some unforeseen circumstances, we took awhile to start making cookies. i was working when thing happened. i didn ask much. when i reach there, thing get rolling already. so i join in and continue the cookies in the making. everyone have e math quiz in the morning but i dun as i exempted.we went to sch. i didn wan to take the quiz but since i in sch, just muz as well take the test. it cause no harm to me.
aft sch, we all went home. too slpy. fall aslp when i didn notice. when i woke up, i realise some homework need to be submited on fri. i start my work when i woke up from my nap. is abt 7plus. of cos i took my dinner. when i finish, the time is 4am. i quickly rush to my bed and slp. "P" was working in the homework too. we helped each other though the net.
since the first lesson is math, i skip that hrs and went sch b4 the next class start. feeling so tire, actually skip some of the lecture on that day. aft school when to make cookies again. make them till morning again. go sch, there, the event reach the climate. sold out all the cookies of my group hard work. veri well done. got some profit. now still need me to finish counting the expenses. i haven start the counting. i m too tire till i actually late for work today. nvm, at least now i m here typing haha.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
hello once again. it's rare for me to be online at this time. just got to finish the work that the lecturer give us. i starting to wonder, am i really fit to work and study now? before the school start i been looking forward to work. now the school start, i felt more willing to go school then work. actually i scare of going to work. when i go work, i think of my homework, the time i wasted on working for that extra cash. if i dun get a GPA of 4 in this sem, i dunno wat action i will take to improve my study. someday ago, i really hope that weekend dun come. cos i will focus more on work then homework. somemore the term test coming. i dunno wat i going to do. christmas coming too. i got no time for my friends, girlfriend.
maybe quiting is a good idea but where can i get money from? my mother? i dun wish to. it been 6yrs of working and living on my own. no extra cash, got work got money, no work no money. maybe i shd go back NTUC to work. it may not be that stressful and i can plan my schedule as i like.
if i do that, then effort from steven will gone to waste. he intro me to this job and i promise to work till i finish poly. if i quit now, i feel guilty.
PRIDE, TIME, MONEY. i can't lose 1 of them. i can't be selfish. will see how it work out after the my school CCN Day.
maybe quiting is a good idea but where can i get money from? my mother? i dun wish to. it been 6yrs of working and living on my own. no extra cash, got work got money, no work no money. maybe i shd go back NTUC to work. it may not be that stressful and i can plan my schedule as i like.
if i do that, then effort from steven will gone to waste. he intro me to this job and i promise to work till i finish poly. if i quit now, i feel guilty.
PRIDE, TIME, MONEY. i can't lose 1 of them. i can't be selfish. will see how it work out after the my school CCN Day.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
it's been so long since i blog. notice alot of people been dropping by my blog to check if there any update. thanks for the support haha. as most people know that i have start schooling in Temask Poly. it's have been quite fun in the school. laughter and more laughter in the class.
i actually felt scare of not coping with my study. i have to work and study. this time is different from my ITE life. the life here is more stressful then what i can imagine. for example, i went to engineering mathematics class and the lecturer give a few question to do after the explaination. i thought i can do it easily as usual BUT i was stunt when i look at the question. i stare at the paper for about 2 minutes. the lecturer saw me looking at the paper and doing nothing then came to me to help in the question. i can understand the question and i seen the question before. just that i can't get my brain working to solve that simple question. i am so disappointed in myself.
i actually felt scare of not coping with my study. i have to work and study. this time is different from my ITE life. the life here is more stressful then what i can imagine. for example, i went to engineering mathematics class and the lecturer give a few question to do after the explaination. i thought i can do it easily as usual BUT i was stunt when i look at the question. i stare at the paper for about 2 minutes. the lecturer saw me looking at the paper and doing nothing then came to me to help in the question. i can understand the question and i seen the question before. just that i can't get my brain working to solve that simple question. i am so disappointed in myself.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
i am so frustrated by this. Everytime the same thing happen to me. is it true that all father have more expectation toward sons. they like to find son fault to say lo.
yesterday went to darlin house for dinner. before that went to have movie at golden village. after the movie went to meet darlin's mother who wanted to buy things in supermarket. met Andrew and Zhuo Jie buying bee hoon for dinner in the supermarket. all of a sudden, talk about playing badminton. after dinner at darlin house, went to have badminton session. haven't been working out for long so sure got muscle ache.
this morning really can't wake up due to the exercise. been slacking at home since its muscle is aching. JUST NOW told my mother about the muscle aching. HE quickly walk over and ask WHY!! my mother of cause say the matter to HIM. HIS comment is "OF CAUSE LA, STAY AT HOME PLAY COMPUTER THEN PLAY PS2." "LIE DOWN THEN DO NOTHING OF CAUSE MUSCLE ACHE LO." I'm so pissed lo. i sure talk back ma, saying:"I YESTERDAY WENT FOR BADMINTON SESSION." "MUSCLE OF CAUSE ACHING LA. THINK I DO NOTHING MEH!!" "NEXT TIME GOT ANYTHING I DON'T SAY BETTER LA." felt so AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
yesterday went to darlin house for dinner. before that went to have movie at golden village. after the movie went to meet darlin's mother who wanted to buy things in supermarket. met Andrew and Zhuo Jie buying bee hoon for dinner in the supermarket. all of a sudden, talk about playing badminton. after dinner at darlin house, went to have badminton session. haven't been working out for long so sure got muscle ache.
this morning really can't wake up due to the exercise. been slacking at home since its muscle is aching. JUST NOW told my mother about the muscle aching. HE quickly walk over and ask WHY!! my mother of cause say the matter to HIM. HIS comment is "OF CAUSE LA, STAY AT HOME PLAY COMPUTER THEN PLAY PS2." "LIE DOWN THEN DO NOTHING OF CAUSE MUSCLE ACHE LO." I'm so pissed lo. i sure talk back ma, saying:"I YESTERDAY WENT FOR BADMINTON SESSION." "MUSCLE OF CAUSE ACHING LA. THINK I DO NOTHING MEH!!" "NEXT TIME GOT ANYTHING I DON'T SAY BETTER LA." felt so AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH
Saturday, June 27, 2009
i super super suay!! haven't so suay before. thursday lost my keys, ytd break my thumb drive and today sure kana 4D de. kns so angry lo. lost key already very emo liao then come the breaking of my thumb drive. how to work? in the end, have to buy new thumb drive. btw every1 rmb dun buy toshiba de thuimb drive. got alot of problem and it break easily.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
how's the life of the soulless mate? i have a tiring wk. tot i can have a wonderful wk end. i was planning to slp for the whole Sunday but there some other plan spoil the plan of mine. it's ok for me.
since Monday, got a new job. working in TP now. helping to change all the lecturer comp in the staff room. start in engineering school. all of the female lecturer will tok to me abt myself. asking me to continue study in TP, then giving me suggestion for course i wanna take and all la. they willing to help me to get to second yrs in TP. feel so honour haha. there some male lecturer will be more erh...what we called naughty(hokkien). they will be more demanding then female lo. there a particular lecturer is like veri typically singaporean. this and that he wan. luckily i not the 1 doing his comp changing. yah btw, first day work, i got to do my first comp in 3 hrs. at the end of the day, i finish 3 comp. there another guy wif me, same as me first day of work. he onli got 2 comp done in 1 day. then the next day i hear be being sack. cos he too slow!!!
tues got another came. he is even faster then me. but too bad monday i counted as a confirm temp liao. done a total of 16 comp. have to finish 440 comp in a month. if can do it, there a incentive for the team. hope we can make it lo. hope all the lecturer be more obedient and follow wat we ask them to do.
ytd quite tire. i got up iin the morning for driving lesson. at abt 1330 meet jy and jacin for lunch b4 going to zz de commission parde. as usual jy late la but nvm lo. haiz!!! went to eat duck rice and have some dessert. abt 1430, meet zz's mother and she's late haha. nvm, we got onto the train, and i fall aslp lo. i rmb while i slping got knock into some1 else too. bo bian too tire. when reach boon lay, i wake up automatically. i scare they leave me alone. we reach at abt 1535. it's too early so we when for dessert again.
took taxi into safti. there bus for us to go to the parade square. we reach the parade square at 1700. the parade start at 1741. happy to see zz being commission. i realise that in loyang 5a1, zz is the onli 1 go for ocs and he the kind of anti drills and uniform de ppl de lo. haiz!!!
aft the parade got dinner wif all the officer.
jy got paranoid thoughout the day. can't control her. zz invited her for the parade but she gone missing when we r ask to put rank for the officer. she totally dun care abt zz lo. her mind onli got yd. haiz we all understand ritez. so nvm lo haha.
my hse pipe leak. cleaning up the toilet and kitchen today. so on the 18th, the contractor can start working in the toilet.
since Monday, got a new job. working in TP now. helping to change all the lecturer comp in the staff room. start in engineering school. all of the female lecturer will tok to me abt myself. asking me to continue study in TP, then giving me suggestion for course i wanna take and all la. they willing to help me to get to second yrs in TP. feel so honour haha. there some male lecturer will be more erh...what we called naughty(hokkien). they will be more demanding then female lo. there a particular lecturer is like veri typically singaporean. this and that he wan. luckily i not the 1 doing his comp changing. yah btw, first day work, i got to do my first comp in 3 hrs. at the end of the day, i finish 3 comp. there another guy wif me, same as me first day of work. he onli got 2 comp done in 1 day. then the next day i hear be being sack. cos he too slow!!!
tues got another came. he is even faster then me. but too bad monday i counted as a confirm temp liao. done a total of 16 comp. have to finish 440 comp in a month. if can do it, there a incentive for the team. hope we can make it lo. hope all the lecturer be more obedient and follow wat we ask them to do.
ytd quite tire. i got up iin the morning for driving lesson. at abt 1330 meet jy and jacin for lunch b4 going to zz de commission parde. as usual jy late la but nvm lo. haiz!!! went to eat duck rice and have some dessert. abt 1430, meet zz's mother and she's late haha. nvm, we got onto the train, and i fall aslp lo. i rmb while i slping got knock into some1 else too. bo bian too tire. when reach boon lay, i wake up automatically. i scare they leave me alone. we reach at abt 1535. it's too early so we when for dessert again.
took taxi into safti. there bus for us to go to the parade square. we reach the parade square at 1700. the parade start at 1741. happy to see zz being commission. i realise that in loyang 5a1, zz is the onli 1 go for ocs and he the kind of anti drills and uniform de ppl de lo. haiz!!!
aft the parade got dinner wif all the officer.
jy got paranoid thoughout the day. can't control her. zz invited her for the parade but she gone missing when we r ask to put rank for the officer. she totally dun care abt zz lo. her mind onli got yd. haiz we all understand ritez. so nvm lo haha.
my hse pipe leak. cleaning up the toilet and kitchen today. so on the 18th, the contractor can start working in the toilet.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Monday, June 01, 2009
oh!!! my 150th posts haha! that's called for a celebration. hmm ok was totally sick out here. think cannot get used to be at home for so long. erh, yes everyone going ORD in 4days. somehow happy and rather lost. what m i going to do? hehe, got a job in tampines 1 shopping centre.
got a called ytd asking me to go Toa Payoh for interview. i actually went to the wrong building and almost late for the interview. lucky i clever enough to walk around the place and find the correct address.
got to the building at abt 1300hrs. get interview at abt 1313hrs. nvm the waiting. erh, got a little chat wif the boss. actually the boss the most is 5 yrs older then me onli lo. veri veri young. he ask me abt wat u like abt this job. haha, when he ask tis qns, i was stunt. cannot ans him. luckily, a contracter asking to tok to him. so the subject was dropped. the boss ask me to job them in sorting out the goods for the up coming IT show. so i will appear in the IT show. if any1 wanna buy WII, PS3, new editing of psp that juz crack abt 3 days ago, i think can get a cheap price. juz rmb to find me at tenchi company in IT show.
k still feeling not veri good since sunday. i even skipped my driving lesson. i really cannot tahan the pain. then ytd i notice, i onli got 3 more lesson to my TP. i have to wait till i recover b4 calling my instructor.
got a called ytd asking me to go Toa Payoh for interview. i actually went to the wrong building and almost late for the interview. lucky i clever enough to walk around the place and find the correct address.
got to the building at abt 1300hrs. get interview at abt 1313hrs. nvm the waiting. erh, got a little chat wif the boss. actually the boss the most is 5 yrs older then me onli lo. veri veri young. he ask me abt wat u like abt this job. haha, when he ask tis qns, i was stunt. cannot ans him. luckily, a contracter asking to tok to him. so the subject was dropped. the boss ask me to job them in sorting out the goods for the up coming IT show. so i will appear in the IT show. if any1 wanna buy WII, PS3, new editing of psp that juz crack abt 3 days ago, i think can get a cheap price. juz rmb to find me at tenchi company in IT show.
k still feeling not veri good since sunday. i even skipped my driving lesson. i really cannot tahan the pain. then ytd i notice, i onli got 3 more lesson to my TP. i have to wait till i recover b4 calling my instructor.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
its been awhile since i blogged liao. the life of slacking everyday is drawing to an end. time to pay back to the economy liao. i started looking for job since last week. the result of the job search is not veri good.
in my mind i wanna work in "Home Fix" at Tampines 1 shopping centre. when i went over there, the staff told me that their interview is not done there. they give me the address of the interview place. when i see look at the address, i was really stunned. i didn't noe where is tt place. so i chose not to go for the interview. since i was bored, i started walking around the shopping centre for other jobs.
i saw "Challenger". thought their interview will be at there. so i walk in and ask the cashier. the cashier is a china lady. English not veri good but can understand. she told me that their interview is at Funan the IT mail. so i gave up looking for job there. then i saw NUM(New Urban Male) went there to ask. the result is the same. their interview at Hereen! haiz, so i walk lifelessly toward the top floor of the shopping centre.
at the last floor, i saw tis veri shop. its black wif pink wordings. the shop name is "Tenchi" its a Japanese figurine shop. i walked in and asked if they needed people to work there. the person gave me an application form to fill in and started interviewing me. yah. i so happy of cos. the working hrs is 11am to 10pm. the salary is 1200. for me its ok la. since i need job so i dun care it pay how much lo. the person told me that the boos will called me in 2 days time. so i happliy go back home to wait. i waited for 3 days. the phone didn rang at all. so i went back to the shop aft waiting for 3 days. the person told me that the boss is overseas. he will be back on sat. then bo bian i wait again lo. until sunday, he still never called me. haiz
ytd went to golden village to ask for job. juz fill in application lo. then i went home liao. while i walking toward golden village, i saw seoul garden wanna hire full timer. dunno today wanna try soeul garden for the job anot. haiz haiz haiz. headache la. of there job around tampines i will take it for $1200. if wanna me go further to work, i hope can draw a salary of $1400~ $1500.
in my mind i wanna work in "Home Fix" at Tampines 1 shopping centre. when i went over there, the staff told me that their interview is not done there. they give me the address of the interview place. when i see look at the address, i was really stunned. i didn't noe where is tt place. so i chose not to go for the interview. since i was bored, i started walking around the shopping centre for other jobs.
i saw "Challenger". thought their interview will be at there. so i walk in and ask the cashier. the cashier is a china lady. English not veri good but can understand. she told me that their interview is at Funan the IT mail. so i gave up looking for job there. then i saw NUM(New Urban Male) went there to ask. the result is the same. their interview at Hereen! haiz, so i walk lifelessly toward the top floor of the shopping centre.
at the last floor, i saw tis veri shop. its black wif pink wordings. the shop name is "Tenchi" its a Japanese figurine shop. i walked in and asked if they needed people to work there. the person gave me an application form to fill in and started interviewing me. yah. i so happy of cos. the working hrs is 11am to 10pm. the salary is 1200. for me its ok la. since i need job so i dun care it pay how much lo. the person told me that the boos will called me in 2 days time. so i happliy go back home to wait. i waited for 3 days. the phone didn rang at all. so i went back to the shop aft waiting for 3 days. the person told me that the boss is overseas. he will be back on sat. then bo bian i wait again lo. until sunday, he still never called me. haiz
ytd went to golden village to ask for job. juz fill in application lo. then i went home liao. while i walking toward golden village, i saw seoul garden wanna hire full timer. dunno today wanna try soeul garden for the job anot. haiz haiz haiz. headache la. of there job around tampines i will take it for $1200. if wanna me go further to work, i hope can draw a salary of $1400~ $1500.
Sunday, May 03, 2009
hmm, quite happy to see zz ytd. although ytd quite scare to see him, it turn out fine. haha, was angry and happy ytd during the meet after sending darlin home. complain abit of this and that then laughing at own joke and all haha.
think gonna complain something at home. ever since i reach home on friday, didn felt at home at all. some1 in the house showing attitude to me and he comment everything i do or sae. didn quite liked him. he won't sae so much at home, he noe he got no much stand at home but he keep commenting on me. pin pointing everything on me. even when darlin at home, he didn't give me any space to stand at the house. didn't put it to heart but if he continue to do this, i can't control my emotion more longer. since morning till now he commented 2 times, today dunno how many time he will complain and comment again.
this is the onli wk i being quite rude to him. every comment he sae i shoot directly back to him. something the day i m too lazy to sae him back. think he noe how to stop but NO!!! haiz.
another wk have gone. time and day getting near to the final dash in the race of 2 yrs. things have to do, has to do it fast b4 the end of the brotherhood life. from stranger to friend, from friend to buddies, some from friend to enemies and some from buddies to friends. things changes during the time u doesn't notice. ppl gain and lose at the same time. who noes, u may lose something impt to u in a second.
final things actually is a advice. don't get addicted to everything in life. got a cal from darlin juz now. some1 is doing things i dun like again. hope he dun get overboard. if not things i sae b4 will happen.
think gonna complain something at home. ever since i reach home on friday, didn felt at home at all. some1 in the house showing attitude to me and he comment everything i do or sae. didn quite liked him. he won't sae so much at home, he noe he got no much stand at home but he keep commenting on me. pin pointing everything on me. even when darlin at home, he didn't give me any space to stand at the house. didn't put it to heart but if he continue to do this, i can't control my emotion more longer. since morning till now he commented 2 times, today dunno how many time he will complain and comment again.
this is the onli wk i being quite rude to him. every comment he sae i shoot directly back to him. something the day i m too lazy to sae him back. think he noe how to stop but NO!!! haiz.
another wk have gone. time and day getting near to the final dash in the race of 2 yrs. things have to do, has to do it fast b4 the end of the brotherhood life. from stranger to friend, from friend to buddies, some from friend to enemies and some from buddies to friends. things changes during the time u doesn't notice. ppl gain and lose at the same time. who noes, u may lose something impt to u in a second.
final things actually is a advice. don't get addicted to everything in life. got a cal from darlin juz now. some1 is doing things i dun like again. hope he dun get overboard. if not things i sae b4 will happen.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
its been awhile since i blog. wanna take a short time to blog abt last wk de, but u cant find time for myself to do any. getting too bz b4 i end the life of being control. btw i fail my FTT on the 17th, so sad ritez haha. nvm i got a new date to pass my FTT in 19th may.
went for facial treatment at ching wei hse on 18th afternoon. getting my face oil pimple off. from 3 down to 1 oil pimple on the face liao haha. at the same time get a mask to get my face smoother haha, like gal lo but i dun care wat ppl sae. after facial, rush down to darlin hse for dinner wif her parent. i was veri late cos the bus la. haiz, so the whole family have to wait for me b4 they leave the hse for dinner. forget where is the place we have dinner but is not a unfamiliar hawker centre. after dinner went for a walk at "mustafa" (spell correctly?) . walk walk walk, b4 going back, we have "teh talei" and wat they cal "tissue prata". that day then i realise there a difference in "tissue prata" and "paper thosai". soon after finish, darlin father drive me home.
19th, went to retake my elder sister's gradation photo at bedok. yes retake, veri troublesome. the uncle technique not veri good but sae we not relax. so have to retake. the me in the pic is like 1 fatty but lump guy wearing a coat over it. so ugly kns. *angry*
24th, book out early and went to TD2 again. got angry wif my parent for not wanting me to go. at first dun wan to tell them where i going de, as i noe wats their reaction. in the end i happen to tell them then the conversation started.
mother: y muz go there?
father: there veri messy de!
father: no money liao still wanna go there spent money.
me: u all alway dun let me go here and there, than where i find friend?
me: alway dun let me go out at nitez, than got friend also won't ask me out.
5 min later......
mother: dun go till veri late.
i didn go long. abt 1plus i went home. cos kinda tire aft a long wk.
25th, did some downloading of games for psp then go darlin hse. y keep going to her hse? she having exam then dun wan her to waste time coming to my hse so take the initiative to go her hse lo. think nxt wk dun need go liao. haha o btw ytd nitez went to marina square for dinner at crystal jade kitchen. the dinner fill my stomach and darlin parent tot i dun have enough for dinner, keep asking me wanna have more anot. so paiseh lo. haha, erh aft a short walk then darlin father drive me home again.
26th, sitting in front of my comp blogging. yes i dun like going out on sunday. like to stay at home to have homemade dinner. actually i like homemade dinner rather then eating outside in restaurant or hawker centre.
went for facial treatment at ching wei hse on 18th afternoon. getting my face oil pimple off. from 3 down to 1 oil pimple on the face liao haha. at the same time get a mask to get my face smoother haha, like gal lo but i dun care wat ppl sae. after facial, rush down to darlin hse for dinner wif her parent. i was veri late cos the bus la. haiz, so the whole family have to wait for me b4 they leave the hse for dinner. forget where is the place we have dinner but is not a unfamiliar hawker centre. after dinner went for a walk at "mustafa" (spell correctly?) . walk walk walk, b4 going back, we have "teh talei" and wat they cal "tissue prata". that day then i realise there a difference in "tissue prata" and "paper thosai". soon after finish, darlin father drive me home.
19th, went to retake my elder sister's gradation photo at bedok. yes retake, veri troublesome. the uncle technique not veri good but sae we not relax. so have to retake. the me in the pic is like 1 fatty but lump guy wearing a coat over it. so ugly kns. *angry*
24th, book out early and went to TD2 again. got angry wif my parent for not wanting me to go. at first dun wan to tell them where i going de, as i noe wats their reaction. in the end i happen to tell them then the conversation started.
mother: y muz go there?
father: there veri messy de!
father: no money liao still wanna go there spent money.
me: u all alway dun let me go here and there, than where i find friend?
me: alway dun let me go out at nitez, than got friend also won't ask me out.
5 min later......
mother: dun go till veri late.
i didn go long. abt 1plus i went home. cos kinda tire aft a long wk.
25th, did some downloading of games for psp then go darlin hse. y keep going to her hse? she having exam then dun wan her to waste time coming to my hse so take the initiative to go her hse lo. think nxt wk dun need go liao. haha o btw ytd nitez went to marina square for dinner at crystal jade kitchen. the dinner fill my stomach and darlin parent tot i dun have enough for dinner, keep asking me wanna have more anot. so paiseh lo. haha, erh aft a short walk then darlin father drive me home again.
26th, sitting in front of my comp blogging. yes i dun like going out on sunday. like to stay at home to have homemade dinner. actually i like homemade dinner rather then eating outside in restaurant or hawker centre.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
the day is so weak for me. felt veri tire today. did lots of things yet little rest. haven been studying for my final theory test and yet the day is drawing near to my doom day. really really tire. o btw not going taiwan wif my parent anymore. they didn wanna go. haiz, can understand cos if we going, how much my parent going to pay? told them that i will pay for my hotel and expenses therebut asking them to pay for my ticket. hmm, nvm la, i fine wif it.
today U channel got 世界那么大. showing the life in japan and the worklife of people in japan. actually i been wanting to go japan to see and walk around. NOT BCOS OF STUPID NONSENSE!!!! really wanna see japan. haha yah, got money meh? OF COS no la. haiz. if can go japan, it will be my happiest day till now. not asking for anything!!!!
today U channel got 世界那么大. showing the life in japan and the worklife of people in japan. actually i been wanting to go japan to see and walk around. NOT BCOS OF STUPID NONSENSE!!!! really wanna see japan. haha yah, got money meh? OF COS no la. haiz. if can go japan, it will be my happiest day till now. not asking for anything!!!!
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