haiz....going back soon.....got a farewell party to plan but haven get back a reply......cut my hair liao.....veri de short....the uncle dunno thinking of wat when he cutting my hair.......he like keep cutting n doesnt realize my facial expression......kns

it been 3 wk of holiday for me......its a count down for me to my final release of myself......i plan to finish my driving by booking final theory this wk.....but too lazy to go down.....maybe tml i go? dunno tml half day anot......if so, is a waste of my time to go down to book my final theory.....my hope is to get my licence in june.........haha

haiz sometime ppl did something wrong....than nv have a chance to cover it up? i mean to save it frm wat he did wrong? when u do something wrong to that person, that person may juz give u a death sentence.........dunno wat ppl thinking nowaday......not asking for much but for an ans and a forgiveness........

few days back, went to changi airport for lunch at soup restaurant......not veri expensive ant the food there is nice too......haha

this few days been running......although is not a long distance, i got a feeling to satisfaction.......cos at least i running lo.....today not going to run......i going to do some statics exercise.......wanna grant back my strenght again......ytd trying doing pull up.......once i mount on the bar i fall immediately.........still dun have strenght to hold my weight yet.......

christmas party on the 24th dec....there a lot of problem coming up......zz place may not be able for the celebration.......so have to find another place if not, we have to cancel the celebration.......if so it the first time since we leave sch that dun have tis celebration.......haiz

quite sad that hui ling cannot join us......she's oversea on that day.....too bad la......haiz

zz, chng, pw, mh, jy, xy n me......so little ppl so sad haha....than abt gen i dunno much........she dunnot joining us anot.......cos she have to go church on the 25th........haiz haiz haiz

haha.....went to genting wif chng, pw and lim. fun lo.......also saw ngiap in genting wif family.......

there too many photo.....lazy to post but i planning to do a album of wat we did at genting and i kept all receipt of things we bought of do together....haha hmm......christmas coming........

going to plan a party at zz hse.....tis time may not have to buy present.....think going to juz ask every1 buy some food and celebrate at zz hse.......hope not that bored lo tis yrs

free liao.........got 3 wk of leave.....than nxt wk going to genting........yeah

veri free now....feel like i have go back to my usual life.......life wif our trouble n lot of thinking haha..............lucky the genting thingy is confirm........now looking forward to the trip haha........aft that when i come back wif declare bankrupt lo.........haiz

this sat gen de birthday celebration......then again my hse going for painting.......so sian.......sat i sure super tire de........hmm btw sat jie ying ask me go out celebrate wif her......for her break up......but she asking me out in the afternoon.......have to paint the hse....so sorri

dunno got wat thign to do.........haiz

the enduring of the 2 wk have finally ended.......so pleased.......haha now looking forward to the trip that been planned long ago...........book tic have have plan for it liao.....gen de birthday also wont crash wif it.....hehe

hmm......u all onli excited in the band i m in....not the song i play here......so sad........haha haiz........................feeling like the heavy weight on my shoulder had been lifted..............

another day of the wk..........feeling really bored.......but nothing can be done............when the day goes by....the tot getting more n more.....

erh nowaday ppl making their own band......my friend n i also got a band......called 胖胖糖......got a new nick name.......although i not the fatest......they called me thunder fat as 雷胖......cos of my super big thigh haha........than there is 可爱胖, 俊胖, 肥胖, 大胖 and 一点都不胖.............dunno y they called me so called the leader.......than we got practice dance la....but dunno for who to see..........siao de

song Say OK by Vanessa Hudgens!!

thanks u hL.....hmm tis wk short wk again......i actually forgot today is my cousin wedding......tml i got duty........so cant go to her wedding dinner........i promise my mother that since i cant go to the dinner, i will go to their hse to congrat them........but dunno y i m at home alone.........haiz

i may not be home for 2 wk.......my critical time of my place.........the veri final thing i going to sweat for............physically stress out.....hope nothing nonsense pop out and make me go crazy........

my bank left wif nothing since i got my pay.........how many days pass onli.........haiz money, work, life......................wanna stop thinking abt anything and follow the tot i wanna follow from the song...............

haiz......tire again......still got things to do that making me have to leave my hse earlier and longer......i m sick and tire of all this already.....lucky is going to end veri veri soon........if it dun.....i goin to go down on depression liao......another month to go and i can fly liao

watch sing to the dawn.......the storyline not bad....juz that the anime not veri gd.........i feel sad when watching the show.......now i understand the diff of singapore edition and other edition...........

trying to get close but being push away..........nv wanna step close but it come even closer like nothing is there to stop it...........cannot be understand......like magnet but wat if i break that....will it be better?

y have to be like that......i book out once a wk and have to go through this every wk..........i dunno how long i can take it........ppl ask me to look back and understand........wat!!! i cant......juz cant understand wat is needed.......

is meeting that impt? i guess so.....there nothign wrong and somethin keep coming out of nowhere.......that y going genting and taiwan.............alone? relaxation is needed for now......nothing is wrong juz my attitude, my character, my way of treating of ppl..............everythin my fault............

song by Troy & Gabriella ~ Gotta Go My Own Way

I gotta say what's on my mind

something about us

doesn't seem right these days

life keeps getting in the way

whenever we try,somehow the plan

is always rearranged

it's so hard to say

but I've gotta do what's best for me

you'll be ok..

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

we might find our place in this world

someday

but at least for now

I gotta go my own away

don't wanna leave it all behind

but I give my hopes up

and I watch them fall everytime

another colour turns to grey

and it's just too hard to watch it all

slowly fade away

I'm leaving today

'cause I've gotta do what's best for me

you'll be ok..

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

we might find our place in this world

someday

but at least for now

I gotta go my own away

what about us?

what about everything we've been

through?

what about trust?

you know I never wanted to hurt you

and what about me?

what am I supposed to do?

I gotta leave but I'll miss you

(I'll miss you)

so...

I've got to move on and be who I am

(why do you have to go?)

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

(I'll try to understand)

we might find our place in this world

someday

but at least for now

(I want you to stay)

I wanna go my own way

I've got to move on and be who I am

(what about us?)

I just don't belong here

I hope you understand

(I'll try to understand)

we might find our place in this world someday

(world someday)

but at least for now

I gotta go my own away

I gotta go my own away

I gotta go my own away

tire, tire, tire and tire......no words can describe wat i feeling now......got ach here and there, itchy here and there.......the test really shorten my life span...........haiz distance so far..........weather so hot......haiz nv its over..........dun wanna think abt it.......

got cough.........drink lots of water liao......juz now my eye even swollen......tear falling haiz........found a new song....wanna share wif u all.....but than my comp problematic again......haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz

hmm.....finally my hardwork going to end soon.....nxt wk is a test.....once i finish the test than i can relax more than ever liao........dunno my hardwork will pay thought anot.....all the mosquitoe, sand la, grass, tree......think will nv see them again.....

tok to chng due to HER worry abt pw in camp.......did u all see the worry side of chng? really cant imagine her being like that..........like a monster lo......still ask me go drink her urine kns..........but wat she feeling i can understand lo.....so i did try to clear her doubt and all her qns la......dunno its works to ease her anot..........then again she can feel free to cal me anytime if i free........not onli to her k...any1 else.....later ppl sae i bais.........got gf dun wan tok to than tok to other ppl.......

hmm......spent way too much liao.....how go genting? by the way is the genting coming up? i dunno.......nothing had been plan..................................one thing can noe that my parent went to genting again.............nothing new for them to go there........once reach of cos go casino la.......i dun go also noe........like drug addict lo.....haiz..........

ytd jy celebrate esther birthday which is on the coming thur.....cant attend so sorri.......then again jacin birthday coming also.......dunno wat to get her.......zz ask me to share wif him....but where got time to buy??????? somemore dunno nxt wk got time for her anot lo.....haiz

VERI BZ LA.........................................................................

another wk of holiday for me.......the air out here is better lo but i caught a flu.....dunno y haiz.........thursday went to have teppanyaki.....i think is spell this way la.....haha anyway i spent abt 40++ on the food itself.........

i dun feel like blogging tis wk......haiz bb

getting more and more sian and tire of wat i doing in the place there.....i nv felt so hopeless lo.......the place is becoming like a living hell.......i cant find any words to show how that place is and how i feel how.......super stress

today slp until noon than got a cal frm darlin......saying having lunch wif her mother cos is her birthday..........actually i totally forgot abt that......so i rush down to her hse and have lunch at Ehub de New York New York.............we share to treat her mother lo......not really expensive.......we catch a movie aft that.......

the movie suck to the core man........we watch 风云决.........suck suck suck......better dun go watch.....dunno wat is the movie toking abt.........i wanna watch my best friend gal.........haiz

tml going eat laksa at bukit merah center............my friend open a shop there........he juz open so going to try first..........actually thats his second shop.....first shop by his parent....at depot rd.......i hear is quite famous de......claypot laksa.....i try liao let u all noe than bring u all there.....but there a problem he open till 3pm everyday....onli selling 200+ bowl........hmmm

i was release late ytd.....really late cos got to wait for every1 to do their things finish than can go home.........so we all wait and wait and wait till 9++........so take cab home lo.....tml going in super early......where my wkend???????????????go die la stupid thing to clear during this age.......FUCK YOU

veri tire......really veri tire......haven doine anything much for the day.........i on leave n off since last tue night till the previous wed........1wk lei so "song" haiz having stomachach now....later going back NTUC find the auntie........since i operation i haven go find them.......i didn go down cos i didn tell them i went for operation........but they complain haiz.......muz go pleased them for their forgiveness......haha but they not so small air de lo.....

later going to have korean cuisine.....at suntec.....how the food? i wonder..........this month i plan to save 750sing.......cos going genting veri soon....dun save up, i think cant go the 'bo sa' haha......maybe nxt yrs......i going to taiwan on my own....have to save up too......dunno i got the discipline to do that anot.......haiz

going taiwan is to relax de.....think going there myself alone........but my sis sae she wanna go too.....so maybe i go wif her than meet back at the hotel at night.....so i wont disturb her in her holiday and she wont disturb me too.......the last time i go taiwan didn have the chance to play.......so this time if really going i have to repay myself......hope the day really come.......

last thing.....i think i going to start my reading and all liao.......i going to take private diploma than continue wif Univ...............

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hmm.....izzit? i dunno haha.....erh yah its abt 6month frm my last blog......the last blog is on apr 8 if i not wrong......due to some stupid idiot asking me to take or delete most of my previous post....if not i wont stop blogging...nvm its ok

yah done lot of thing during the period i nv blog....cant remember everythin so i think i juz tok abt some of my recent incident of my life lo......hope is not boring.......

juz celebrated my birthday not long ago.....went to lots of celebration.......got chng de, family de, darlin de n army friend.........there a celebration wif mei ling n all but due to some problem, have to wait a bit longer............

o yah Zz go OCS.....veri good lo.....not best in anythin in the company still can go OCS.......veri proud of him but dunno he can take the training anot.....he not kana confine.....think 2wk frm now can book out........

not long ago, went to open up my grandparent de coffin.....finally see my grandparent..........in person....actually i not suppose to tok abt that de but i dun believe in all this then again i scare of it haha.......went to lim chu kang early in the morning....do this n that till 3 in the afternoon......super tiring......my father keep complainning we veri lucky that we can slp.....haiz halo i nv slp at all ok...........like to complain alot lo

one of the day, went out wif chng to buy my shirt n pants.......thanks her alot lo.....help me tis n that haiz.....so gd to have such sister haha........or izzit bcos i 人缘好??? yah i that the case.......hahabut really thanks her lo.....love her so much haha.......

cousin's wedding...hmm than wedding is boring.....the MC veri lousy.....onli the food is good.....haha than really sad to go to such boring wedding.....ok la can tok to cousin n all but onli toking can wash away the boredom???? is like going for dinner onli....not wedding lo.....i dun feel the joy n atmosphere of a wedding............yah btw my cousin onli 20 tis yrs......

k think i tok too much liao.....yah yah i will put pic nxt time k..... btw u r listening to 不，完美 by 李玖哲