i'm sick....the coughing n sneezing irritate me.....think the cough n sneeze cause my headache ytd....juz came back from the doc wif one day MC n 3 kind of medicine....the med include Metronidazole tab which have to finish all the tabs unless rash appear......next suniton tab which is for pain(muscle relax)....lastly, phenexpect(coughin syrup).....forgot to tell the doc i feelin cold....than he also didn realise that i got flu.....shit die....i going to sneeze to death liao...haha

ytd quite bz......bz wif cindy thingy....like the knife thing...sudden short of stock than have to help soo cheng abit or else she will be there for the whole nitez....i dunno wat cindy doing....her stock not enough like the japanese knife & paring knife.....she didn even care n soo cheng also dunno....so ask the 2 cashier to sms every1....tiao siao lo....than stef n me help to count the remaining knife n do all the calculation......take not really long but cos got here n there things to do....i keep leaving my sit n let stef do alone...she somehow like blur n i didn give her correct instruction...so take abt 1++hrs to finish counting.....

after counting....ask stef to sms some of the customer n than i go buy food for every1......cai ting work overtime...than wen xing go for BBQ during dinner break.....so ming jie stay to look after the abalone counter....he diao me when i going to buy food....like the expression of "where u going? u not workin meh?" KNN.....nvm i sick dun wan to argue wif u.....than come back....diao me again.....giving expression of "wah...go buy also dun wan ask...." halo wat's the problem??? wan food buy ur own.....dun ask ppl to do so....i kind enough to buy for any1 but not u...UNDERSTAND!!!

he quite quiet ytd...think cos of leow......every1 ignore him lo....except for the man beside the abalone counter...keep tokin to him haha....or maybe he keep tokin to the man......dun care.....also dun wan care.....

get infor from leow sayin he wont be stayin after the 7th day of chinese new yrs.....haha so happy......wont see him anymore.....he wanna celebrate birthday? who care....any1 wanna go??? CONFIRM NOT ME.......

kok veri funny...keep scolding vulgar language....sayin how n wat he sae.....confrim wif leow again...his pay didn hit thousand plus.....on leow calculation....he onli got 600++.....but u noe wat kok sae.....kok sae that mj sae he got $1500 for last month salary...hahaha so funny....stupid.....mc TL3 also dun havew so much lo....leow TL2 abt that sum onli....he wanna lie also dunno....o one thing he sae that make me more like beatin him up....he sae he in charge of gro also.....see IN CHARGE le.....o ppl big lo....n sae after leow than him the biggest...yah ritez biggest dao kang ppl.....than he sae all ppl in gro under him....SIAO.....i under u...u come order me do thing la....u dare u come....i make sure u life in NTUC is unforgetable.....u not even in charge of anythin lo.....abalone....pooi ask u check the abalone roll cage n muz change the papaer inside....wat u did? i have to change it myself lo....n sort out is there any replenishing ytd morning.....FuKer..........o some more sae he is multi-talented....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

btw think ah ter wanna complain him to pang...he didn sign out at the back....than ter veri angry...tok to me a few time n bang the table...lightly la.....than i tell ter that tml ask him empty everythin in his bag.....b4 lettin him go....ter got the right hor.....hmm y everythin abt him huh???? headache headache...........

i m done wif her.....
nothin left...
no regards....
no memories....
nothing.....
i can go NS wif no bunden....
no ppl to recal or think of....
i muz be strong....
cannot let my emotion take over me....
no gift anymore...
valentine's day.....
alone....
tot of giving her surprise....
hahahahaha......
can save of money liao...
handphone bill...
gifts.....
all can save......
use it to buy more food for myself...........

i m at home the whole day today...somethin make me tire, somethin make me stress, somethn make me veri angry n somethin make me feelin an idiot......

in the mornin....
wake up early in the morning abt 0800hrs...
to continue my game(PS2) borrowed from zz.....
b4 playin sms her to see is she is on the way to sch
ask her to be careful as its raining...
she reply me sayin she woke up late....
but father driving her to sch.....
she reach sch...
cal me.....
quite happy...

play game till 0920hrs....
wanna prepare to have a morning jog wif ZQ.....
than its rain nonstop.....
so i sms him to see if can change the time to evening....
he agree.....

so continue playin....mother bought breakfast for me n my sis...
finish it wif in 5min.....
didn expect to finish it so quickly....
than continue playing la.......

next.....
my sister wake up.....
she is going out...
ask me go out of the master bedroom...
she wanna use the heater in the toilet...
bo bian....
get out lo.....
so i switch on tv....
watch till she come out...
she took abt 30min..
dunno wat she doing inside...
than she come out....
i went in....
continue playing....
sister start naggin like my mother....
fine...
early in the morning...
i concentrate on my game....
ignore u....

play play play.....

until 1300hrs....

WAH........

horrible...

playin for so long....

nvm....

than switch off PS2...

start doing my project...

at 1310 n 1316 receive ur sms.....

receive a sms from her...

wanna borrow somethi from me.....

after hang up the phone.....
i put my comp on standby....

prepare my bike...
my bike lack of maintance....
do some touch up on the bike....
change screw...
oil the bike....
adjust here n there....
pump the bike....
wif in 30 min...
finish everythin n ready to set off....
b4 going....
cal if she is reachin...

on the road...
i took the wrong side of the track...
end up riding my bike in 1 big round....
paiseh....
late....
sorri ...
need u n ur friend to wait for me.....
after that ride back home quicky.....

reach home....
sms her.....
ask her to be careful....
no ppl...
so sian...
sittin in front of the comp....
refreshin memories.....
so happy....
but sad....
continue my project....
include all music....
than found that 1 of my thumbdrive....
spoil.....
all the file inside lose...
siao.....
all my NP stuff......
nvm.....
wat's gone than let it be....
no point crying over spilt milk....

do do do...
parent come back....
mother ask me y didn sweep the floor....
ignore her....
do project until i dunno how to continue.....
switch off the comp....
help mother wif her work....
b4 helpin...
sms her again.....
ask her if she having sch tml....
no reply..........
watch tv n help mother at the same time.....
cartoon finish....
watch xiao xin....
so funnny...
laugh the whole out of me...

dinner time....
father sit down....
start naggin....
"stand ther do wat.....y dun wan take chopstick?"
fine.....
ignore u...........
eat dinner in silent....
sudden...
parent ask abt abolone......
ans them lo.....
ask kindly...
i ans.....
ask in a bad manner....
sorri i not here to listen to ur angry or wat de.....

finish dinner.....
continue helpin mother do things.....
do until she cal.....
2021hrs.....
chat awhile...
pck cal....
ask me abt the paper...
she hang up wif out tellin me....
ok...
i cal back...
continue chit chat....
than she tell me abt wat her friend sae.....
AGAIN......
comment from friend.....
no dun like...
but whenever there's comment from them....
she will change....
haiz....
tis time...
they really hit the jackpot....
YES......
I AGRESS WIF WAT THEY SAE...
I GIVE U RING....
SEE IF U WILL WEAR IT ANOT....
U EVERYDAY WEAR I HAPPY....
ONE THING THEY SAE DIDN HIT THE SPOT....
I DIDN USE THE RING TO SEE IF I HAVE ANY CHANCE ANOT....
M I THAT CUNNING???????

b4 u return from oversea...
my friend force me to buy....
ok i buy....
u come back...
give it to u...
u wear it on the spot....
i didn really notice u wear my ring the last yrs....
after the first day of the yrs....
THE REJECTION....
i start to focus on ur finger....
u still wear my ring.....
seriously veri happy....

3 days ago.....
start thinkin..
if other admirer give u ring....
wat will u do....
didn have the chance to ask u...
than u give me the news.....
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.................................
ShOcKiNg.......
still wanna ask u....
u still love me????
no nvm...
yes my pleasure....

ok....
u dun wan to wear..
fine..
dun ask if wanna return me anot....
the ans is NO.....
its gift for u..
not meant to return to the buyer de.....
all the gift will be sad.....
cos i pay for it...
after payin.....
i have hard time for my meals.....
especially the ring.....
u wan u throw or keep....
i wont wan to noe anymore.......

not onli that...
tis few days...
i noe i being irritating....
i noe myself...
so dun wan to tok much wif u...
but askin how u doing...
put more concern on u...
the comment i get from u....
Being To Concern, Make You Feel Irritated.....
ask me not to think much...
IMPOSSIBLE.....
b4 hangin...
ask u not to sms me....
u did....
i really dunno wat u thinkin.....
choose not to reply u today.....
i mean rest of the day...
sorri......
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

now sitting in front of the comp bloggin....
thinkin n thinkin....
isn it better when we r plain old friend....
y do i allow u to step into my world...
y do i let u comfort me after the breakup wif my previous....
Y!!!!!
Y!!!!!
Y!!!!!
dun understand....
really dun understand....
NOW...
how m i going to stop thinkin abt u.....
friend?
a person wooin u?

according to my watch.....
the time is 2139hrs...
u sms me the second time...
i really wan ur sms...
but....
nvm....
i reply u her....
The owner of the ring have nv be me.....
its urs.....
wat u going to do wif it...
is ur decision....
i wont interfer.....
not angry at all...
but....
tis emotion have nv been in my life b4.....
until now..................................

anythin ppl give as a gift, dun return. its a form of disrespect.
wan to throw or keep, dun let the person noe. it will hurt that person....
apologise????no thanks....i cant take it.....

so stupid!!!! forgot to blog abt wat happen in the seoul garden ytd while having dinner wif the gang.....ok erh actually nothing muz happen except for fab do stupid things.....for example, take lot of crabstick but dun like to eat.....he took abt 40 short crabstick n all dump into the soup itself....haiz as siao as ever...haha

hmm...ytd pck, stef, david, chist, gin, john n me...o n some latecomer which is fab n andy....attand the dinner....ok la quite fun....chit chat n so on......than christ sit in front of me....stef beside, next to christ is gin n next to stef is andy...that the table sittin i m in...than next table, pck n david sitting 1 side n john n fan their opposite.....my table havin thai tom yam soup base...n pck de is seafood kimchi....my soup base suck...not bcos the soup id tasteless but a tok clever but act hao lian de ren......hit an egg into the soup...i not blamin the person hittin the egg in but who broke the egg n stir in the soup????? than gin so strange....i put my food into the soup....when it boil, she ask me to bring up all the food....y????? she can continue to put her food into the soup....NO 1 WILL EAT HER FOOD DE........haiz dunno wat she thinkin....kinda dunno wat she is thinkin abt......hmm.....i felt moody somehow......the way she tok n act....dun really like of a sudden....rmb she sae: "kan, wo na de shi wu, wo yi ding chi wan de....bu xiang ni men..." haiz wth....since she sae that than i keep myself quiet lo.....wat's the point urguing wif her????

o muz thanks stef for feedin me wif food.....than my stomach today veri strange.....keep runnin to toilet....not blamin her but think my stomach not use to the food.....the dinner ytd not wat i expected.....somehow think is out of their usual standard......

than today.....set my alarm at 0730 n 0800 to wake myself up....but i slp till 0930....my class start at 1000 lo....haiz bo bian....rush to sch n still late for 30minutes.....today whole day is engineering math.....n last period is pe......first 2hrs veri bored...shdn have attend the class....teacher going though the assignment he give us....so i read my comic

than next 2hrs.....i fall aslp while thinkin of some incident n refreshin my memories i have.....i slp for 1.30hrs......haha when i wake up, my friend told me pe cancel....omg there goes my joggin...haiz when class going to finish, there a veri straight feelin coming to me....my stomach achin like hell...so rush home lo....bo bain take cab.....sian no money liao still have to take cab home.....finish my business....than switch on comp to do my project...

i have to finish it by tonitez cos tml have to passup liao....i complete less than 50% of the work....than when i stop doing n went for dinner, the project is somehow getting the way to wat i wan.....so happy......done by myself lo.....1yrs project le.....than have to continue the work today....if tonitez dun finish i wont be slpin lo.....missin her so much...i wan to see her......

mune temae akuseputo touhou mama goshujin kareshi? watashi gozen omoomoshii dzuki temae....sumimasen dzuki to-ku sokosoko kono shubi mou.....

hmm......every fri to sun, i dun have the chance to blog.....too bz to blog....look at my schedule ok....
fri SCH 0800~1200
NPCC 1430~1800
Work 1830~2230
ANIMAE 2300~0000

sat NPCC meetin 1000~1200
WORK 1400~2230
GAMIN SECTION 2300~0200

sun WORK 0800~1600
NAPPIN 1700~1830
DINNER 1900~2000
TV 2000~2200
GAMING 2200~0200


thats the life i living now....veri bored...veri veri bored.....i dun have my own free time....but i dun complain abt it.....nothin to complain of...if i cant take the bored n hardship now, next time when i m old enough....i have to take care of my family n have to give my wife money to spend lo....promise to have a salary of S$60K each month....than have 3 credit card for her to use.....dun mind cookin for her.....thats all i can do.....think so ba.....

sat got a little boy kana caught for stealin hair gel....so stupid to come NTUC steal gel...siao wan lo....the kid wanna give money to pay off his criminal act...but "SO" scolded him....haha than police come n parent come down....so stupid....ask him pay for the product sae no money...than ask him cal parent than take out money.....still wanna argue...than "SO" ask him to cal parent down to let them noe wat he doing outside....but he dun wan....than cal police lo.....siao wan...give him chance he think no big deal.....haha serve him right..........he onli age of 14 than got police case....

sun a stupid china tourist man.....bought a steamboat early in the morning... than went back to shop for more things.....he bought an item in the first place than went out of NTUC....after that he put the item into his bag while takin the empty plastic to shop....act like there an item in the plastic bag....he walk pass the pump.....like wanna steal the pump....ah ter keep followin him...n walk behind him....he didn notice lo but ah ter veri tire cos he keep walkin here n there around the air pump section......haha than he put back the pump....his intension was to take the stainless steel pot of the steamboat....he place it in the plastic bag n walk out of NTUC....ah ter pull him back n bring him to the office......
his reason for stealin the pot is bcos he scare the pot will spoil so wanna get a replacement....once he reach the office he kneel down to beg ah ter...he beg him think abt 3 time not to cal police....than he kneel in front of anderson too....than anderson ask him to sit on the chair....i walk pass he wanna kneel than i didn see la....he keep tokin to me askin me not to cal the police....stef actually is near the china man...i scare the china man later dunno do wat...so i ask stef to come over to the computer there....who noe the china man will do wat to stef.....after muz discussion.....ah ter n heidi let him go....askin him to pay for the streamboat lo.....hmm crime doesn pay.......remember that........

haiz.....wat is love?????? wat is like????? wat is admire?????

kotonashi mune hensen waga kibun koro maro......watashi koigokoro maro...

hmm...early in the morning meet long time no tok de friend "Chng Hui Ling" haha!!!!!!!!! she meet me to get photoshop de CD....think she need it for her sch work....hmm previously i lent it to jie ying n ytd after my work i get it from her....so sorri have to let u wait till so late....paiseh

k i went out quite early to take bus n wanna meet chng de but i forgot to take the CD so i go home n take......than after takin the CD...i waited for 20 minutes for the bus lo.....in the end i late meetin chng...so paiseh!!!!!hehe

her stomach not feelin well as the "u noe wat" is killin her...hmm than we go burger king to have breakfast.....i already have mine so i go n have a drink than chit chat wif her.....abt an hrs plus la....hmm have been tokin to sec sch friend quite long liao....than she ask me lot of things....abt "HER", than money n all sorts of nonsense....she also tok abt her bf n her bro lo....tokin abt money too.....hmm she have not change lo.....she everytime tok abt money de...sayin her bro ask money from parent la....than parent veri bias to her balbalbal......haha

i bought tis jacket in I.P. Zone at S$26....think ok la cos i been wantin a jacket for a long time liao...hehe of cos happy la....i have to happy cos i pay for it le.....o btw tis the veri first clothes i buy for myself since i m born lo....so hehe will treasure it properly de....hmm tis jacket suit me juz nice....size 'M' erh...not bad la at home wear than hmm veri fittin so happy...veri veri nice!!!hehe ok erh thanks to chng for bringin me ther to buy tis...thanks veri much haha.....






o while buyin the jacket saw "JESSICA" my ex-.......hmm ok la she going to work than she like a grown up liao.....i ask chng y she dress until like wanna go hook so man lo....than she sae tis "ni yi wei mei ge ren xiang ni meh, ren shi hui zhang da de...."!!!!!! i so sad haha but ok la......she grow up than good lo.....haiz.......


will life be better when we leave the mortal world?

ok....i come blog liao....hmm today got scoldin by the PCK...sayin i got blog but dun blog....put there is collect dust.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

erh on sat didn work. went to zz hse to relax. dun wanna stress for the whole week. still cant adapt to the sch life!!!! so paiseh go disturb him. he lag of slp, than go his hse, he slp n i try keepin myself quiet. i play his game lo, wait till he wake up than cook for him. promise him to cook dinner for him de. so bo pian haha!!!!! not really good dinner la. juz eatin moyjo 100 ramen n CP wanton wif crabmeat. surprisingly, "she " ask me out for dinner. so i ask her come over to zz hse to have dinner wif us. at least i m cookin n she dun have to pay lo. after dinner, i ask her to play game. she flip the game book n found a veri funny game. which is game on spongebob!!!! tiao.....i duno my friend have that game lo but ok la the game is quite fun. haha!!! after awhile of fun, jy n ht come into the pic. which ht keep askin zz for lady number n jy was like jealous lo!!!! hmm i dun think she jealous la. she came n i pass the control to jy to let her play wif "she".

sun!!! funny wan....i was dreamin of pck scoldin stef haha!!! but stef was cryin....hmm have i told any1 b4, my dream is not like the theory ppl noe. my dream will alway come true de. is the matter of when is the dream going to happen. hmm sun nothin much. quite angry wif the mac de manager. takin our order like wanna fight us. all the order we take was wrong n he came to help but than he sae tis in chinese : "so ur order is wrong, wat drink u wan, tell me quick!!!" wth......i m a customer ok. later going to send a complain letter to MAC.com......o b4 that i somethin happen too. the promoter cookin. ask di qiang to eat wif them. THERE'S A PARTICULAR PROMOTER sayin: "xian mei yao chi swensen, jiao jing xian pei ta, ni gen wo men chi"!!!!!!!!!! wats the meanin of tis. sun is a lousy day.....

today!!!!my idiotic friend, use my name to play on my tagboard. HALO!!! all same age liao still dunno how to behave. the ppl r MH, PERRY n their gang.....pls wan to play CB game go somewhere else. dun do it in my preious blog. its for my memory de not for u all to play around de. o plannin to go seoul graden on the coming monday,22nd of jan. the price namely at:

weekdays
Lunch: Mon~Thu (1130hrs~1659hrs) adult=S$13.99++ child(age3~9)=S$5.99++
Dinner: Mon~Thu (1700hrs~2230hrs) adult=S$16.99++ child(age3~9)=S$6.99++

weekend
Lunch: Sat, Sun & PH (1130~1559) adult=S$16.99++ child=S$5.99++
Dinner: Sat, Sun& PH (1600~2230) adult=S$- child=S$6.99++

Student
Mon~Fri (1130~1630) S$10.99 (onli for lunch)

drink at S$2.50 each (free flow)

any1 interested? o yah for NTUC gang onli. hehe sorri if wanna eat wif me de ppl, book me some other day k.sorri!!!!!contact me asap k!!! o sk dun worry, u can join us too!!! till now, stef, john, david n me comfirm. pck think he too shy, dun wish to make up his mind yet. than ask ct n lj along too.....they haven reply yet.....awaits ur reply hehe!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KNN
my back achin....
dunno y....
on wed...
the achin start to attack my back....
is on the left side...
i can carry things...
but i cant bend my body!!!!!
a little stretch on my back....
the pain will kill me instantly....
AAHHHH!!!! its hurtin again...
o......

this few day been drinkin lot of milk...
my shit is veri irregular.....
wanna drink more milk to clear everythin inside my body...
make sure the heart...
liver....
stomach...
all shit out...
hmm.....
later going sec sch..
got NPCC....
the rain damn big..
how to go...
think bring umbrella out....
the rain will pressure the umbrella n disfigure it....

then one of the cashier in our NTUC cal me...
his son in my sch NPCC...
she sae her son iron the pants....
than the iron too hot...
kana the pants got hole...
than ask me cal the son...
TIAO......
wat m i going to do...
than i cal lo....
the son didn hang up the phone properly....
the phone engage....
than i wait lo...

cal back...
the son ans...
sae he no mood to go...
CB...
i waste my time on u meh....
its rainin big in tampines k......
i dunno how m i going to step out of my hse lo.....

i wan to shit...
but the mable de toilet bowl...
so cold...
scare my butt freeze.....haiz
actually wanna go eat maggie mee de....
b4 i go NP....
forget it la....
CB....
rainin so heavily...
than the shit in my butt like wanna blast out liao.....
haiz....
OOOoooooo........my back!!!!!!!!!!!

waiting for u.......

ytd, veri happy n sad. there a old lady, who is blind la. i was "lucky" to be assign tis job by my beloved ex-supervisor. the lady seriously cant see de. i was by hussian to assist her in her shoppin than hussian run away. WAH!!! good deal hor

hmm, she told me wat she wan to buy. there's 3 diff item she wanna buy. she going to her son hse. than she wanna buy somethin for her grandchildren.

firstly, she ask me abt green tea. than i tell her the price n everythin lo. o yah she speak eng. next she ask me abt aloe vera thingy. i tot of the package de. which is on top of the frozen item on the right hand side face the non-food section. i took the item than quickly get to her. o shit forgot the let u all noe she is standin at the MS counter. than from much evidence, i finally found out that she wan POKKA ALOE VERA DRINK 330ML. she wanna 6 cans, so i took it for her.

next she wan bread which have the free give de. if i rmb correctly, is sunshine de. she wan wholemeal de than go find for her lo. that's not much a problem for an expert like me.

the final thing!!! is horrible lo. she like veri shameful when she takin out THIS item. she take it out n pass it to me like veri suspicious like that. than like givin somethin important to her gandson like that. her left hand hold the top of my right hand n on her right hand holdin the item while puttin the item to my hand. NOE WAT'S THAT????? A PAD!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she ask me to help her find that. OMG how do i noe wat kind of pad she use? ok the pad she pass me clearly stated that is KOTEX but wat she use? for night? wif wings? ultra slim? haiz!!!!!
lucky, there a counter wif no ppl!! guess who? lay eng lo. i ask for her help. when i ask her to help me, i keep laughin lo. than the customer look at me like "siao wan".

k than lay eng find liao, she find the veri discount de for her. 2 for 5.15. when i pass it to her, she ask me "the same wan anot?" KAU!! how i noe, so sad lo. seh ask me help her to calculate the price than i help her pay. total everythin cost abt S$11.60. got a kind lady let me pay for the item first. damn lucky lo!!! or u can see me hold 2 package of KOTEX lining up to pay HAIZ!!!!!!

Payin for her liao, she ask me to get some1 to bring her to interchange. i cant ask ppl to do things ritez. she i take her there myself. at least i noe the place n i wont do bad things to her.

on the way, she chat wif me. she ask me where i came from. she sae i sound like a china man. TIAO!!!! not really surprise lo. cos first day of work, meng choo n bao fong ask me i from china anot liao. but long time ppl didn sae lo. than she ask me wat other language i speak lo. n she sae i have a veri heavy tone of hokkein. she also tok abt her son. all her son bad side. i bring her to the interchange n the bus she wanna take, i walk back.

awhile later, there's a person ask me for tea light candle. the flat candle at the back de. from far i can see that person comin toward me wif lot of qns. she IS a "butch" i see no breast!!! she start speakin...tot her voice will be quite man de but surprisingly, her voice is "ta ma de" sweet lo!!! which really melt my heart. like the background of her got flower le haha!!!!!!!! than i walk her there wif smile on my face.

when we reach, u noe wat? she jump on her feet while clappin her hand lo. OMG!!! KAWAII haha. than she hold me n kiss....haha kidding

that all lo. the rest of the day n today is damn boring.......


i still cant forget abt wat we were use to be....every words u sae still remain in here....

ok.....today meet stef to do some pei jui stuff.....her mother wan her to buy green tea for her uncle as they helpin them to paint the hse.....she bought 4 1.5ltr of green tea....n 2 pack of oat milk.....than i also bought a pack of tong-yi de abalone noodle n 2 prawn roll.....

the prawn roll of cos give her lo....pai jui ma....cannot onli help her carry a few thing than make her forgive me....hmm the green tea n oat milk hor.....dunno y it weight ton.....haiz heavy till my hand numb....cannot feel anythin.....but alritez la....can see stef smile....better than cryin around....haiz...

on the way home she threaten me....she sae she will cry if i dun let her carry anythin......than i ignore her lo....than u not wat.....she...............................................didn cry...think she too touch liao....haha.....but of cos let her carry somethin la....cos damn heavy.....i let her carry my stuff....n i camplain...."own things dun wan take....take other ppl de" hahahaha

when i reach her hse....omg i see bra la....underwear everywhere haha.....jk jk....her hse is in a whole mess....i carry the stuff n let her bro settle n i go off liao........hmmm gd exp lo.....

DUN MAKE A LADY ANGRY OR U WILL SUFFER FOR THE REST OF THE LIFE WIF HER....



ihavenforgetabtudarlin....istillmissualot

SORRI STEFENIE

o shit...i m really really a bad man....ytd i scolded stef wif out reason...n vent my anger on the small trolley for basket......i so sorri lo....i also dunno y my anger n frustration over out of the sudden.....wat actually happen???

in a veri bz nitez ytd.....think started during i wanna put all label in the newly set bay of product....i start to get frustrated cos i lose my mind in there....stef helpin me...than i think i raise my voice on her....she didn sae anythin but i noe i raise my voice....

while i pull all the trolley into the shop itself....hussian tell di qiang that i didn close the door n he sae i didn do work...i juz sae "ask him go n die"

next....jenny pie ask me pass the superviser card to the next counter n i raise my voice again n sae "i not free la"(in hokkien).....than put all the metal bar all that la....wanna close the shutter myself than di qiang help me.....ok fine

there still customer outside but quite far from the shutter....when the shutter is half way down....a baby ran into the shop....ok the baby was short so nvm.....but there a lady behind the baby...she slowly walkin like nobody business like that....n stand directly under the shutter....the shutter is really really heavy...i try to push the shutter up while shoutin at the lady n shoutin 'stop the shutter' (in chinese)....i didn look at who will stop the shutter....but keep lookin out for the lady who standin under the shutter....

when i wanna ttry back.....david is already behind me lo....than on shit....who going to stop it? the shutter is 1cm close to hit the lady lo.....lucky the lady look toward us n she walk away...look walk away ok KNN....the mother also try to push the shutter up n see how heavy i think.....than the shutter stop n raise up.....i look back stef is havin control of the button....

i scolded her ritez in front of all cashier n customer lo....sayin "now than u stop wat's the use?" after the i kick the trolley for the basket hard n go to basement to push all trolley back....at the basement...i tot alot....i really gone too overboard...she was tryin to help but wat didn she get? scoldin from me......i veri sorri...

i came back from pushin the trolley....i go to where stef is...she is keepin quiet.....she didn tok to any1....i took some label to put....almost to finish....she came n hand me my bread n some label....n left.....i noe she is angry at that point of time.....

i sms not to go off by herself...n quickly anyhow paste the label...than i chase after her....but she is in the toilet...so waited for her...on the way home...she didn sae anythin....i stop her n explain....than she start cryin.... OMG!!!!! i really sorri man....i not meant to hurt her by scoldin her de....

tryin to comfort her.....but no point sayin sorri all the time lo.....haiz (that's wat she sae)

i sms zj to help me comfort her n she did.....i thx her alot...i keep smsin stef to apologise....n she cal me....sayin that is nothin la....she sae if got explaination everythin is alritez liao....she keep findin excuses for me as to cover up my fault lo...haiz wth....wat become of me??????

i noe wat is going on to me....dun ask me wat? y? how? k.....dun wish to explain it.....i feel like a criminal.............................
stefenie i veri sorri...i sincerely apologise to u.....

finally got the chance to blog liao.....fri a LCB went shoppin at the end of the day....i kindly ask her to leave the shop as we r closing.....at first i told her in chinese n she saw at me....so i quickly change the language to eng n tell her we r closin....she did nothin n make her eye go even bigger.....i ask her to leave in chinese again n she finally reply n in a loud tone...."ni men yao guan le?" n i reply of cos..... i haven choose my stuff u wan me leave(in chinese).....WAH NNB....i explain that i cant let her stay longer cos is abt 10.30 liao.....she than walk off....i was walkin behind her....than she turn back n sae......u all not openin till 10.30 meh???? in an angry tone i reply NO!!!! we open till 10.00.....n she give me a look of....."u sure??" KNN...i wanna bring her to see the sticker paste outside of the NTUC de....n she sae loudly.....still got ppl ma y m i leave....CB u think NTUC ur father open de meh......she again sae i wan to bring thin also cannot......2 things onli.....than i heck care her....n go chase other customer......than i finish she wan at the counter complainin the price of the product n me.....she complain to the cashier n hussain.....NB i tot of slappin her lo.....

fri i got CCA open hse.....all my cadet kana punish by me.....the open hse start at 2.30pm. i finish changin at abt 2.15 n waitin for them to ask me to join in the muster parade. than wat they haven finish preparin the stage for the open hse. n i have to help.......at first i stand there n see de...cos i not mend to do all that....but wat they dunno everythin...i start bossin around.....all the NCO than being call to the room i screw them down the floor....even the item they r mend to do also haven finish.....i have to tie all the things in my precious full-u....

i got interview by the sch media.....askin me abt my duty n the purpose of me stayin in np for more that a 7yrs........the result of recruitment is ok lo....cos at least i got a number of 61 sec1 cadet for the next parade......the i end my afternoon juz like that....

after work went to my friend chalet.....i zuo zhi, xiu yuan brought a give for her....stef tag along too....cos she feelin hungry n wanna have supper....after the supper zuo zhi n i send stef home....n zuo zhi was so kind enough to accompany on waitin for bus 39.......till the early mornin 5.30am....

actuall was waitin at the bus stop at 12.00 de.....tot there is still bus 39....didn expect that the bus stop comin but onli the townlink bus n bus 81.....siao lo....than we chat abt the old sch day....tokin abt who have change in the pass 2 yrs....who gain n who lose......n i tok abt my sad memory...................i start singin songs.....my singin improve ok....think cos of pck n stef.....cos they sing to me sometime n i sing to myself at home....haha..........didn think that zuo zhi was impress on my singin....especially jay de chrysanthemum stage......n the song cry on my shoulder...haha wanna train my singing on the top of the hill in pasir ris where there a stage on top.....cos they wanna go kbox so.....hmm we buy some drink n food to fill our stomach....i wanna to sing de....but the place make us feel.....eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee er....while eatin we hear.....pooooo........we kept quiet awhile n zuozhi ask me did i hear anythin....i sae yes.....WAH......creepy lo.....n we tok abt religious stuff.....n i feel alot of cold n chill wind blowin.....OOOooooooooo

we tok abt knowledge of wat i read on the book....abt space...so exciting....n tok abt movie like the island n the day after tml.....i wanna watch the show......tot go find the vcd out...both movie r old movie........

tokin abt movie ytd when to have movie wif her......ok la....not much thin changes.....the feelin still there but not the attitiude...she usually hug my arm while watch the movie....but hmm not tis time round.....she still wear my ring.....we r still as close....n i bought a pair of ear ring for her...she wear it immediately......i dunno wat she thinkin...she is not showin me anythin....but i keep thinkin out of it....i dunno....i wrote somethin in the dairy we have......i bid farewell to the part of myself that love her but i cant get that part to slp deeply.............

ytd CB uncle....go home at 9.30pm....nvm la....but he left me wif 40++++++ trolley to push lo....lucky stef, wen xing n fab help abit lo....or else i dunno wat time i got to go home......fuckin uncle....hope tonitez not him.....

ytd on phone she cried again....
i dunno wat to do to make her feel comfortable.....
i dunno how!!!!!!
can any1 teach me....
wanna comfort her but alway....
its in the late nitez of the day....
i do wanna comfort her anytime....
but she cant proberly come out during that time.....
its so late haiz

so i being rejected...
but wat?????
nothin have change....
i dun wan anythin change in my life wif her....
i dun..........
she is going oversea soon.....
she cried not able to be wif her friend....
she is going oversea for study......
she feel lonely....
she dun have any1 to contect wif outside of "Sing".....
i dun mind going to stay wif her but my NS stop me......
i can do nothin......
suddenly i feel like defering my NS n continue my study as i can at least see her till the end of june next yrs..............
suddenly tot alot.....
grown up?
i dun think so....
tis is how i feel all the while.....
i m useless.....

my senior CI wanna me to be the new chairman of my area......
i rejected it......
how stupid m i....
i been wantin to have that post.......
i cant focus wif it....
i veri sick of my life.....
study...
work....
NPCC.....
KNNBCCB...............

my life is like a dream....
nv be true abt it...
the onli thin i happy is when i m slpin...
not bcos i not thinkin of anythin...
but when i dream....
everythin come true......
my date.....
the words she speak......
the time wif her......
msn joke...
i will rmb de....
everythin...
one day i may.....
lose my memory............
or maybe...
lose myself away from any1..............
HOW STUPID........



life is so meaningless wif out love......

ytd was a tear droppin day......
i made her cry...
my heart was breakin when its started.....
we tok things out...
she sae she like me alot....
but not luv........
we chat till 3am in the mornin...
me!!!! cried too....
somehow being rejected....
i dun feel the rejection....
i wont give up.....
she made a dairy for me.....
she insert friendship qns in it...
i think i fail it...
i love her...
i dun need ans...
i need her to stay happy...
i willin to sacrific for her...
anythin...
but not everythin....
her smile keep me going.....
her joy keep me breathin...
her joke keep me laughin....
cant live wif her when she is groomy.....
promise nv to scold urself in front of me....
i haven done enough for u....
i can wait...
wait for another 10 to 20 yrs!!!!
even 50 yrs i will wait too....
even the rightful man isn me.....
i will still be by ur side....
guardin n keepin ur smile on ur face......
i will accept all decision from u....
i wont give up on u...
dun cry anymore.....
be strong over tis things.....
i treasure it....

i m a fallin star now,
need somethin to catch me.
i will be waitin for the catcher of my life,
i m waitin.......

HAPPY NEW YEAR......true!!!!!!! is a new year alritez but i was VERI VERI lucky to cal n get to drop my tear once i wake up.....i dunno i count myself lucky anot.....in tis brand new year got to drop tear for the lady i love n have the feelin of sudden fall from the cliff haha.......................................T_T (wtf)

haiz went countdown wif a constructor, a nonsger(nonsense de ppl), a storekeeper, an actor, a joker, a bowlin ball n a malaysian at an hurtful place to me.....DOWNTOWN EAST

went countdown see the singer....n wat i saw my ex-.....she spray a can of spray on me....than constructor n bowlin ball....spent money on useless stuff to make the atmosphere up....but lucky i saw them comin wif the spray so i ran..............................................

went to eat supper.....saw my friend...sae happy new year....

see another friend n sae hihi.......no big deal abt ytd...every1 is havin fun

except for me.....i dun enjoy.....TOTALLY DUN......

emotionally n physically.....i dun like ytd activity......dunno y, feel like its a wasted trip.....fuck
by typin i feel irritated........... :'(


I DUN WAN TO FEEL ALONE...............