Tuesday, April 26, 2011
My school just started. I think I am coping with it. Thinking about her? Yah, that's for sure. I been thinking, what should I do when is her birthday? I asked her to ignore me. I told my friends that I won't want to see her anymore. Than, why am I still thinking of her birthday present? hmm....
Thought for a long time, still can't make up my mind. First option, buy a present and keep it. Dont't sms her, don't wish her. Second option, share a present with her brother BUT ask the brother don't tell her is from me. At the same time, don't sms her to wish her happy birthday. Third option, sms her to wish her, buy her a present and ask her out for a date.
The result of my thinking, first option, childish!! Second option, kind of retated. Third option, she will think I still cannot get over her.
True that I still can't get over her but I don't want it to be too obverse and making her worry and sick of me. I am sure, she will share a present or buy a present for me and wish me when my birhtday come. I just don't wish that I will have that kind of emotion again!!
While bathing just now, I told myself that giving myself 3 years to get on with my life. If I still cannot forget her, ask her out by then. Ask if she is attach and ask her to give me another chance. Stupid!! I know!!
Thought for a long time, still can't make up my mind. First option, buy a present and keep it. Dont't sms her, don't wish her. Second option, share a present with her brother BUT ask the brother don't tell her is from me. At the same time, don't sms her to wish her happy birthday. Third option, sms her to wish her, buy her a present and ask her out for a date.
The result of my thinking, first option, childish!! Second option, kind of retated. Third option, she will think I still cannot get over her.
True that I still can't get over her but I don't want it to be too obverse and making her worry and sick of me. I am sure, she will share a present or buy a present for me and wish me when my birhtday come. I just don't wish that I will have that kind of emotion again!!
While bathing just now, I told myself that giving myself 3 years to get on with my life. If I still cannot forget her, ask her out by then. Ask if she is attach and ask her to give me another chance. Stupid!! I know!!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Hi, I can't talk to you from now on. I trying to control myself not to look at your picture. I had never stop thinking of you. You may think I am like a pest to you, interrupting you singlehood life but I think, you will want to hope what is happening within my family. Maybe, you have already stop reading the blog but I will just post the news of my family today.
Today, got a car from steven, wanted to call you and ask if you need someone to send you to school. Suddenly, remembered that you are having study breaks and I remember i choose to ask you to ignore me. So just drive pass your house sadly. Send my brother to work, miss a turn and we end up at Bukit Timah. Try our best to get back to Bugis. Happen to go Orchard, Newton Circus and Novena Square. Luckily, there is no ERP, if not, I will be broke. When returning the car, end up some where else in Singapore. Today is a day of lost day for me. I don't know la.
Yesterday, was my sister mini big day. Everyone keep asking where are you? Think what I anwser!! I say, No more alreasy. Their reaction is the same, HUH! Don't sad la. Never mind. My 2nd aunt even clever, HUH? Don't lie to me la. You don't want let me see right?
Oh!! Great news, My 2nd sister may be getting marry in about 2 to 3 years time. When she announce it today, I just kept quiet and look into the air. Than was talking about going University. I added to the conversation saying, 'You all wait for ah kai!! The photo will be nice.' Parent of cause asked, then you lei? Hmm......
Been thinking alot today. Stay in Pasir Ris for about 4 hours. Alot of flashback. I am missing you. Don't worry, I just cannot accept the fact that you not my girlfriend anymore. I remember what JY told me what she told you, saying "Stef, we know and JX know that you and him cannot get back together." I think I been repeating myself.
I actually thought of what if we get back together? Will I be like in 蜡笔小新comics, how their parents act? All I wanted is a simple life with you. Sometime some small quarrelling, some 撒娇 from you, I don't need to talk much and you know what I wants. If got children, get some protest party, to make you angry and jealous!! Seriously missing your face, and the cute little naughty mouth and your smile. Today, I am calm, I think.
As what you say, I been commented by other about my attitude in blog. I been repeating everything everytime. Will only say, no one will watch disney pictures in cinema from now on. Thinking of that, make my mind blank. Oh yes, today my friend trying to buy laptop. While trying to think, we went T1's ACTION CITY. I saw this mini lego. All of a suddened, I thought of you. I saw a pink pig. I believe if you see that, you will buy and give it to me. At that shop, I saw a box writing "THERE IS NOTHING IN THE BOX BUT LOVE THAT I CAN GIVE."
I have to say this, I never purposely sms you on relaxing yourself. I do that everytime you having exam. It's ok if you don't remember. Just want to tell I never do that on purpose.
Thank you for accepting my favour. You scare that my family will hate you. I am sure they are not and more hoping you to come back. I will try everything again to get over you. I think I will takes years. Please do ignore me till then. Get someone to pass me message on the change of your life in the future. Wish you well again. Hmm...never!!
Today, got a car from steven, wanted to call you and ask if you need someone to send you to school. Suddenly, remembered that you are having study breaks and I remember i choose to ask you to ignore me. So just drive pass your house sadly. Send my brother to work, miss a turn and we end up at Bukit Timah. Try our best to get back to Bugis. Happen to go Orchard, Newton Circus and Novena Square. Luckily, there is no ERP, if not, I will be broke. When returning the car, end up some where else in Singapore. Today is a day of lost day for me. I don't know la.
Yesterday, was my sister mini big day. Everyone keep asking where are you? Think what I anwser!! I say, No more alreasy. Their reaction is the same, HUH! Don't sad la. Never mind. My 2nd aunt even clever, HUH? Don't lie to me la. You don't want let me see right?
Oh!! Great news, My 2nd sister may be getting marry in about 2 to 3 years time. When she announce it today, I just kept quiet and look into the air. Than was talking about going University. I added to the conversation saying, 'You all wait for ah kai!! The photo will be nice.' Parent of cause asked, then you lei? Hmm......
Been thinking alot today. Stay in Pasir Ris for about 4 hours. Alot of flashback. I am missing you. Don't worry, I just cannot accept the fact that you not my girlfriend anymore. I remember what JY told me what she told you, saying "Stef, we know and JX know that you and him cannot get back together." I think I been repeating myself.
I actually thought of what if we get back together? Will I be like in 蜡笔小新comics, how their parents act? All I wanted is a simple life with you. Sometime some small quarrelling, some 撒娇 from you, I don't need to talk much and you know what I wants. If got children, get some protest party, to make you angry and jealous!! Seriously missing your face, and the cute little naughty mouth and your smile. Today, I am calm, I think.
As what you say, I been commented by other about my attitude in blog. I been repeating everything everytime. Will only say, no one will watch disney pictures in cinema from now on. Thinking of that, make my mind blank. Oh yes, today my friend trying to buy laptop. While trying to think, we went T1's ACTION CITY. I saw this mini lego. All of a suddened, I thought of you. I saw a pink pig. I believe if you see that, you will buy and give it to me. At that shop, I saw a box writing "THERE IS NOTHING IN THE BOX BUT LOVE THAT I CAN GIVE."
I have to say this, I never purposely sms you on relaxing yourself. I do that everytime you having exam. It's ok if you don't remember. Just want to tell I never do that on purpose.
Thank you for accepting my favour. You scare that my family will hate you. I am sure they are not and more hoping you to come back. I will try everything again to get over you. I think I will takes years. Please do ignore me till then. Get someone to pass me message on the change of your life in the future. Wish you well again. Hmm...never!!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
People have been trying to comfort me. Trying to ask me to stop thinking. I been doing that too. I really really tried but it don't work on me. It only last for a week. After that, i will go back to square one!! I don't cry easily. Nothing can make me cry. I don't ever drop a tear when my uncle pass away. Now, even television show also can make me cry anytime. i showing sign of weakness!!
Msn her, trying my usual way again. I know the outcome but still want to try. I know all the reason and the answer and the explanation but still want to try. I ask her to ignore me from now on. She feel that by replying my sms is showing a form of hope to me. To me, is 20% yes and 80% no. Never mind, crying is a form of destressing.
My mother asked me to go genting with them on the 15th may. At first, I say ok!! Yesterday, I told her, I don't wish to go. My plan was to see if she is free and get her to go out. I still trying stupid things when JY and CHNG telling me to stop and there is no chance anymore. Is a forever thing. I know that. I really know! I just can't control myself. The only person who can control is CHNG but I do not wish to get scolding from her everytime and I don't like to 'ma fan' others about my things. Haiz!! No one will watch disney related movie anymore. Worst of all, kungfu panda 2 is coming. I planned to watch it with her. I shall just buy 2 ticket and keep.
I know is stupid and childish and immature and foolish. This is the way of my life. My uncontrol emotion driving me nuts. I can only do foolish things now. Still hoping things will go back to it use to be. I will then communicate with you. truefully.
Never your friend or anyone from now on. Sign Out!!
Msn her, trying my usual way again. I know the outcome but still want to try. I know all the reason and the answer and the explanation but still want to try. I ask her to ignore me from now on. She feel that by replying my sms is showing a form of hope to me. To me, is 20% yes and 80% no. Never mind, crying is a form of destressing.
My mother asked me to go genting with them on the 15th may. At first, I say ok!! Yesterday, I told her, I don't wish to go. My plan was to see if she is free and get her to go out. I still trying stupid things when JY and CHNG telling me to stop and there is no chance anymore. Is a forever thing. I know that. I really know! I just can't control myself. The only person who can control is CHNG but I do not wish to get scolding from her everytime and I don't like to 'ma fan' others about my things. Haiz!! No one will watch disney related movie anymore. Worst of all, kungfu panda 2 is coming. I planned to watch it with her. I shall just buy 2 ticket and keep.
I know is stupid and childish and immature and foolish. This is the way of my life. My uncontrol emotion driving me nuts. I can only do foolish things now. Still hoping things will go back to it use to be. I will then communicate with you. truefully.
Never your friend or anyone from now on. Sign Out!!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Been busy for awhile!! Thinking of her? Yah I still but my life still have to go on. Thousand of thought have been in my mind. Let's not talk about this. Today, my sec 4 finally P.O.P. Happy for them and sad for the lousy planning and running of the parade. I need to apologise to the sec 4. Final speech for them, while in squad. Don't know what we doing!!
With Yiting!!
Mini photo session with the Ex OC and officers
I think they good friend!!
I think they good friend!! 
Sec4 with CIs'
Sec 4
Sec 2
Sec 1
Scolding them!!
Still scolding!!
Biggest Boss!!
Biggest Boss's Boss
Act Only!!
Last words in their squad!!
Gift for memories from the officer. 
I hate these people!!
Preparing for the Parade!!!
Preparing for the Parade!!! 
Still trying to figure out what they doing.
I don't know, i think the blog don't like me. I don't know how to operate it too. Never mind!! Hmm, sister's wedding is drawing near. My father was talking about my er jie's bf than he said this "I lost a daughter-in-law." In my mind "I lost everything." Think I thinking too much since my sister is getting marry. Seeing others hold hand and being lovely, I feel sad!! The channel 8 series make me cry too. How sad and gay!!
I don't know, i think the blog don't like me. I don't know how to operate it too. Never mind!! Hmm, sister's wedding is drawing near. My father was talking about my er jie's bf than he said this "I lost a daughter-in-law." In my mind "I lost everything." Think I thinking too much since my sister is getting marry. Seeing others hold hand and being lovely, I feel sad!! The channel 8 series make me cry too. How sad and gay!!
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