Who Says

Dearest

Trying

Today, trying to ask her out for a movie date. Wanted to watch Kung-fu Panda 2. Notice that, she a;ready watch it with her friends. Well, when I found out she watch it already, I turn from sad to terribly sad. It spoilt my mood the whole day. I actually smoke a lot today. Haiz. Life!!

At least, we did ask me for a lunch date but it will be in July. When the school start around July, I will be damn busy. I don't think I will have time for anything. I just want to see you for a whole day. Companying me for a day and the part that I wish you advice birthday because I got no time and may be going oversea during that time.

It been 6 months since break up. I give myself this period of time to cool myself down and start to move on after that. It will be 曾经爱你最深的我，跟你说声再见。Still don't know what I can do, that's why I hope to meet you this month and pass you something. Well, since you are fully pack with program, than I will not spoilt your plans. It just fate to be this way.

Beside talking about this, there is another thing that make me so angry till I scold vulgar language in front of customers. Just because of a colour, orange, the customer actually hang up my phone 3 time. She is damn so rude. I curse her future kid don't have an asshole. I was very angry, I called back the customer and hang up the phone on her and just walk out of the shop and smoke. haha!! Haiz. Think need to sleep.

Thanks for everything my dear love. Will never forget the time we spent, do and play. I regret of letting you go in the first place and regret of not treating you well. 再见以后，在也不会是以前你认识的我。

do enjoy this

因为，就是，如此

因为我们的改变，
改变了周围的事。

就是没有想象，
想象变成事实。

如此的变化，
变化了我们。



王景贤之言语

当你觉得你的伴侣很烦或讨厌，
想想当出是为什么跟他在一起。

Letter to you

Dear Recipient:

How have you been? I believe is good. Didn't know what happened when you meet jy and Chng. I didn't ask anything of the meeting. Still think I am childish on this. I don't believe you all didn't talk about me. :)

My sister just came back from Italy. She bought me a bag. Didn't dare to ask her to buy anything for you. She is not angry with you, she and my parent did hint me on you, especially my father.

Looked at some of your pictures in Desmond's blog. Not stalking on you, just seeing how have you been. You went back wearing contact lens? Okok!! I think I ask too much. You seen prettier. No chance for me to envy the beauty.

Thinking of you lesser by a day. For me, hmm....yah been good. coping with my studies, friends and my life. Thinking of getting oversea to continue study. Didn't get to think of going oversea when you are with me. Believe you will hate me but now, I think is better for me to go oversea.

Know some of girls in my CDS, Transnational Studies(TNS). Stayed in Temasek Green for a week. Got to cooked for everyone. A lady, secretly take my picture when I eating. 2 lady ask for my number but only give one of them. There is a lady in my class, giving me a feeling of you. The differences is the face and voice. Other than that, everything is the same. Hairstyle, shirt, talking manner, height and the cheeks.

Seen the lyrics I post? Yah, didn't get to play it for you and I don't think you will spend a lot of time listening to radio. So, copy and paste the lyrics on the post.

Friends around me keep asking me to open a new account for Facebook. I rejected their request. Remember you saying that I don't have the patient not using Facebook. Haha!! Not because of that then I don't want to open or re-activate the account. There is still lots of reasons behind it.

Oh, I change my phone to iphone 4. I got myself white iphone4. You?? Think your contract is over too. When are you getting iphone? Kungfu Panda 2 is out. I still remember you say want to watch it together. It's ok if you are going or watched the movie with your friend, I am ok. I think I going to skip that movie if I am not watching with you.

Talk a lot. I don't know you will read anot but I am walking out slowly. Even if it take 5 to 10 years, I am still walking out slowly. Don't worry about me. Please help me wish your parent well. Wish you well too. Love!!

Sincerely,
Jing Xian

What Are Words

Chris Medina – What Are Words Lyrics

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you’ll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I’m meant to be where I am
And I’m gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight
And I’m gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I’ll be there
And I’m gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I’m forever keeping my angel close

Wish You Were Here

AVRIL LAVIGNE - Wish You Were Here lyrics

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall you just walk through it

And I remember

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
Right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

(Chorus)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
(I wish you were here)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)

I love, the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth, is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
Right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

(Chorus)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
(I wish you were here)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I, never wanna let go
Let go oh oh (x2)

(Chorus)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
(I wish you were here)
Damn! Damn! Damn!
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
(I wish you were here)

说了再见

周杰伦 - 说了再见
作词：方文山 作曲：周杰伦

天亮了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调 你说好不好

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

天亮了 雨下了 你走了
清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
落叶飘在湖面上睡着了

想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
你看看 你看看 不到
我假装过去不重要
却发现自己办不到

说了再见 才发现再也见不到
我不能就这样失去你的微笑
口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
若角色对调 你说好不好

你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
心碎了一地 捡不回 从前的心跳　
伤心过去 我无力逃跑

说再见 才发现再也见不到
能不能就这样忍着痛泪不掉
说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
再次拥抱一分一秒都好

Hi, I am back. Back to being myself? Not exactly. Been pushing myself not to think of her. These few days, got a lot of couple surrounding me. How I really wish that you are just right beside me. Saying something sweet that make you smile.

I have this thought of asking you out for a date. Then I remember you said this: "Even if I go out with you, you won't say anything. I must as well stay at home." That's me, uncontrolled feeling.

I called CHNG yesterday. What she say is right. When I got the chance to get you back, I didn't do anything to it. I just let it be. It is the timing that I caught wrongly.

Since my sister wedding, most of my cousin told me this, "贤，你的就是你的。跑不掉的。" Since then, I got the feeling that I will be back with you IF I do something to it. I been thinking, what should I do? I really really afraid I will do something that will make you decide that I am a pest!! How should I phrase it?

Still afraid that you will be someone else. Not that I won't congrat you but I hope I am the only one for you.

Oh, I dye my hair for my sister wedding. You won't have the chance to see it but I will get my sister wedding picture to show it here. Some people say I look like 'Ah Beng'. Hah, who care!!

I believe u remember that today is my sister's wedding. I feel kinda of drunk!! Today is a day of Q&A. A lot of my cousin ask where are you. I have to break the sad news to them. Talk a lot about you.

There a cousin of mine, ask me what happen and I told her everything. Same reaction as it is, she say is like a drama series. While talking to her, we actually go into detail of it. How would I feel? I get myself hard liquor and talk. I feel drunk before that and I kept drinking. I think you should know, when you are quite drunk, you can't control you emotion. I am surprise I can control it while the tears is about to roll!!

I imagine that how would you feel if you attend the church wedding today. It's so holy and grand. I can imagine that you will feel so jealous and request this and that for our wedding. Holding my arm and leaning on my shoulder. I will try to push you away but you keep grabbing my arm!!

Haiz!! I am really tired!! Really tire!! I hope to get a stick to destress!! miss you darlin!! Believe you won't see this at all!!

uninstalled, install ie9!! what the hell. I miss you calling me dear!! seriously

My school just started. I think I am coping with it. Thinking about her? Yah, that's for sure. I been thinking, what should I do when is her birthday? I asked her to ignore me. I told my friends that I won't want to see her anymore. Than, why am I still thinking of her birthday present? hmm....

Thought for a long time, still can't make up my mind. First option, buy a present and keep it. Dont't sms her, don't wish her. Second option, share a present with her brother BUT ask the brother don't tell her is from me. At the same time, don't sms her to wish her happy birthday. Third option, sms her to wish her, buy her a present and ask her out for a date.

The result of my thinking, first option, childish!! Second option, kind of retated. Third option, she will think I still cannot get over her.

True that I still can't get over her but I don't want it to be too obverse and making her worry and sick of me. I am sure, she will share a present or buy a present for me and wish me when my birhtday come. I just don't wish that I will have that kind of emotion again!!

While bathing just now, I told myself that giving myself 3 years to get on with my life. If I still cannot forget her, ask her out by then. Ask if she is attach and ask her to give me another chance. Stupid!! I know!!

Hi, I can't talk to you from now on. I trying to control myself not to look at your picture. I had never stop thinking of you. You may think I am like a pest to you, interrupting you singlehood life but I think, you will want to hope what is happening within my family. Maybe, you have already stop reading the blog but I will just post the news of my family today.


Today, got a car from steven, wanted to call you and ask if you need someone to send you to school. Suddenly, remembered that you are having study breaks and I remember i choose to ask you to ignore me. So just drive pass your house sadly. Send my brother to work, miss a turn and we end up at Bukit Timah. Try our best to get back to Bugis. Happen to go Orchard, Newton Circus and Novena Square. Luckily, there is no ERP, if not, I will be broke. When returning the car, end up some where else in Singapore. Today is a day of lost day for me. I don't know la.

Yesterday, was my sister mini big day. Everyone keep asking where are you? Think what I anwser!! I say, No more alreasy. Their reaction is the same, HUH! Don't sad la. Never mind. My 2nd aunt even clever, HUH? Don't lie to me la. You don't want let me see right?

Oh!! Great news, My 2nd sister may be getting marry in about 2 to 3 years time. When she announce it today, I just kept quiet and look into the air. Than was talking about going University. I added to the conversation saying, 'You all wait for ah kai!! The photo will be nice.' Parent of cause asked, then you lei? Hmm......

Been thinking alot today. Stay in Pasir Ris for about 4 hours. Alot of flashback. I am missing you. Don't worry, I just cannot accept the fact that you not my girlfriend anymore. I remember what JY told me what she told you, saying "Stef, we know and JX know that you and him cannot get back together." I think I been repeating myself.

I actually thought of what if we get back together? Will I be like in 蜡笔小新comics, how their parents act? All I wanted is a simple life with you. Sometime some small quarrelling, some 撒娇 from you, I don't need to talk much and you know what I wants. If got children, get some protest party, to make you angry and jealous!! Seriously missing your face, and the cute little naughty mouth and your smile. Today, I am calm, I think.

As what you say, I been commented by other about my attitude in blog. I been repeating everything everytime. Will only say, no one will watch disney pictures in cinema from now on. Thinking of that, make my mind blank. Oh yes, today my friend trying to buy laptop. While trying to think, we went T1's ACTION CITY. I saw this mini lego. All of a suddened, I thought of you. I saw a pink pig. I believe if you see that, you will buy and give it to me. At that shop, I saw a box writing "THERE IS NOTHING IN THE BOX BUT LOVE THAT I CAN GIVE."

I have to say this, I never purposely sms you on relaxing yourself. I do that everytime you having exam. It's ok if you don't remember. Just want to tell I never do that on purpose.

Thank you for accepting my favour. You scare that my family will hate you. I am sure they are not and more hoping you to come back. I will try everything again to get over you. I think I will takes years. Please do ignore me till then. Get someone to pass me message on the change of your life in the future. Wish you well again. Hmm...never!!